.....Walk with me, as you share with me my journey.......

2011-01-26T11:39:00.000-08:00

Let it be.

Easy said than done.

I really need to learn to relax and learn to let go.

There are things that I can't control and things that I can't get.

I know, god has its arrangement for me. No use insisting.

Now, I shall try my best in this exam, and leave the outcome to god.

I wish, I can be more calm and stable.

A new chapter?

2010-12-03T03:15:00.000-08:00

I used to love writing posts. Writing craps, nonsense and sentimental stuff.

Nevertheless, as I grow, I start being busy achieving things that I want or things that I think I should do. I started to tie myself up with obligations, achievements, and plans.

Then, I started to neglect writings. One caveat though, I love writing in mandarin. I find mandarin words to be more expressive and subtle than English words. For an example, the word 'yuan' signifies a lot. It doesn't necessarily means only love, or fate. This word alone covers a broad meaning. In its simplest sense, I translate 'yuan' as a word that signifies that it is not easy for us to be able to meet the people in our life, be it our lover, parents, family, friends, or even strangers. There is this string that brings all of us together, and this is 'yuan'. Yet, I can never find such synonym in English.

Perhaps it's because of my limited vocabulary, or my bias , or even, my ignorance. Yet, I still find mandarin to be a better medium to convey our feelings. There are so many words that can't be replaced in English. For example, when I think of the word 'love' in mandarin, I will be reminded of 'sacrifice', 'tolerance' and 'faithfulness'. Yet, for the same 'love' in English, I will equate it to 'passion', 'lust' and 'summer love'. It's different for me. Hence, the word 'I love you' will never be the same as '我爱你'. Well, enough with the crap, but I do realized that there are so many mandarin words which carries deep meaning and yet I can't find the same replacement in English. hmmm.. time to brush up my English I suppose. Or perhaps, I usually read only erotic novels in English, and yet, I read love story in Mandarin? haha. I have no idea.

Anyway, this is just one of those many posts that I'll come up with. Apparently, I need to brush up my writing skill for IELTS, and I find this to be the most convenient avenue for me =)

To my friends in Malaysia, I miss you. =)

Love-Box condom! =）

2010-04-20T09:43:00.001-07:00

for those who are interested, my dad is currently clearing the stock. So if you want to buy it in a set, you can get it at about RM5-7/box(by buying a minimun of 8 boxes ie a set. hehe) =) o yeah, and he is finding a distributor for this too ! Price is negotiable =)
email me at slyrene@hotmail.com if you're interested ! =)

So, someone decided to elope with the money and gave my dad a hard time.
well, probably god wants me to treat it as a challenge , I wouldnt know.
Anyway, thanks to them, I am now having a very lovely collection of Lovebox condom!! hahah

This is the set I like the most! Its the ultra thin version. 3pcs per tin. But hey! Its not about the content I am concerned with! I like the box!!!hahahh
Heard that this one should be the best. because it is dotted. I think the function is similar to a vibrator. Anyway, it's best for those who are adventurous and those who enjoy extra sensation! haha

This is another one that I kinda like~! Nyway, I dont really use the content. So I use the box to put all my stuff. including my monthly stuff!It look so adorable that nobody will know what's inside!! Aint that super cool!!! =) haha

child education

2010-02-16T08:22:00.000-08:00

'It is easier to educate a child than to teach an impaired adult'
This is a statement given by one my of my cousins.
She has 4 kids altogether. 2 of them are special kids. I am not saying they are disabled, but they are different from the other kids. They are slower in learning, however, they are very gifted in arts. Yet, Malaysia doesnt has an education system that can support kids like them.
Thus,my cousin chose to home-school them. It is a hard road but I can see it is paying well now.

She is a tough lady. She is very optimistic too.
At the same time, she really trigger me to reconsider about our country's education system. I am an outcast , a freak or even a weirdo in Msia education system. I dont enjoy following the rules albeit I was rather excellent in that system. I have been wondering what is the best education system. Is it the liberal system in USA? or the rigid system in Spore?
I realised the real answer is, the life education. This is the system that I have been living for 21 years. Albeit it is hard, but it is paying well now.
Now, why am I thinking about this? I know this is too early for me, but yes! I am thinking about my babies. Regardless of me having a partner or not, I definitely want the best education for my babies. If Msia system doesnt works, and worse come to worst, I am to be in Msia for good, mayb I can let my baby home-school too? Maybe this is the best solution for them? I wouldn't know. Yet, this is a good alternative worth considering.

I am amazed with my cousin.

Papa

2010-02-01T00:45:00.000-08:00

To commemorate the year of me entering into adulthood, I'll be writing few posts to express my gratitude towards people and things around me. SO , lets start =)

For those who are really close to me, they will know how important my dad stands in my life. Today, I am going to write things that I hate and love about him =)

10 things I hate about my dad:
1. Always throws cold water at me whenever I tell him about my plans and dreams! as in ALWAYS! (ie never fail to do so) and later , always help me silently/indirectly.
2. Always put the egoistice "helo, I can handle everythin!" kind of attitude at me. even wen he dun hv any plan in mind actually.
3. Always choose to keep all the probs to himself and suffer in silent.as if , I m not his family member jer!
4. Always treat me like a small kid. as in "what would you know? ure too young for this!"and said I am v stupid.Paling best,he will said" u always tink ure d smartest but look at what u've done! you're worse than anyone else!" But afta tat, kept braggin to his frens how proud he is to have me(uncleS told me.lol)
5. Did not let me know where the graveyard of my dog,Lassie, jst because he dunwan me to be sad.I knw its been years, but I really2 wana know=(
5. Feed the parasites(you-know-who-you

-are) and told me to stay away whenever I advice him to let them grow up. and KEEP feeding even when he is not in good condition himself. sigh.
6. Always scold me for teachin sis "wrong" ideas. Just bcx he dunwan me to worry too much about family.
7. Nvr fail to make me cry, even just to describe him in details to others.
8. Always tried to pull me down and afraid of me growing up and NEVER LET ME GO.because he tot I wont be his baby girl anymore. totally NOT true!! sumore , nvr attend my award ceremony.
9. Made me jeopardize my future and plans because of him being secretive and protective. (ok, I cant blame all on him, but I still wana blame abit :P)
10. For everything that I hate him, it jst make me love him more and more reluctant to leave him =(

12 things I love about my dad:
1. Always let me chase my dream,and never really interfere my decision even when it's in the expense of his happiness/reluctancy ...
2. Nvr fail to make me feel secure .and always strive hard to support this nottti daughter.
3. Frown and feel sad whenever I tell him my sad stories. I can feel him aching=( that is why I dont cry infront of him. But for the times when I was realy sad(was v young),he will hug me to sleep.
4. Always listen to me even when I am throwing tantrum, and just keep quiet after that altho sometimes its unfair accusation from me =( In fact, he always ask and listen about my life every nights, even when it is v late and he is v tired.
5. Nvr fail to remember my friends' names and the details in my life.
6. Uses action to show his love , not words nor empty promises. never break promise nor lie. and improve on things that I nag about. lol .not all. bt at least he tried=) n tats enuff for me.
7. Whenever I scr*w up my life or anythin, he will fix it for me, even when it may made him scr*w himself up.
8. Never want me to worry about anything. For everythin bad, he will be there. For everything that is good, he will make sure I'l be thr to enjoy it together.
9. Ask me " what can I do to be a better dad for you? I am learning myself" even when he is already 50++. even when I was really rebellious,and I waas practically scolding, and I was blaming him. OR I was leaving without his blessing. ( I pratically done everything b4 I inform him what I was going to do )
10. ego with mama but always do everything mama asks and buy everythin mama wants and even fret/blank wenever mama's sick. lol. yet, nvr holds mama's hand in public. lol. For being responsible for her and carry the whole family's burden since the age of 23 and nvr grumble a word. nt even a single sigh=(
11. For being there in every parts of my life. For up and down, for happiness and sad, for health and sick and for the best of me. For being selfless, and accomodative. For all the sacrifices he made for me.
12. Uses his love to tie this rebellious daughter down.

For everthing. He is not a perfect dad. He made mistakes. But, he is the best dad for me. He has done the best for me and I have yet to do the best for him. I really cant wait to make him to be proud of me. For everything I do and for everything I have,Its' really because of him .

If ever there's an utmost desire in me, that would be for me to be successful in every aspects of life and be happy.not because of me but because I know, the only way to make him really happy is when he sees us being happy and living good life. I hope the day will come before its too late.

For everything he has done for me, I have yet to have the courage to even hug him. Which is an irony.I did say "I love you" but that also after Ive mustered all the guts in me. sigh. so irony.
Thus, to add into my new year resolution: To hug him and kiss him on cheek on the day I leave.
Girls, pls keep me still with my plan! I'll braved myself for tat!!

21

2010-02-01T00:44:00.000-08:00

2010 marks the year of me entering into my adulthood. So, to celebrate such great year, I am gonna have my list of resolution @ dream list:P

20-30:
1. Bungee jump!
2. Sky diving!
3. Get a house ( by 24!)
4. Advocate for people's BASIC welfare(If ever I get to stay in legal field.lol)
5. Write a book. hehe
6. Do charity/volunteer =) ( I am thinking of HIV org or Pink Ribbon)
7. Work in various countries (that's a total dream comes true! )
8. Be one of the most eligible bachelorette? *chuckles*
9. Buy a bussiness (does bakery shop rings any bell here? hehe)
9. Kiss a Lesbian( I know its weird. lol)
10. Kiss a gay and turn him straight! (that would be soooo cool! haha)

30-40:
1. Adopt a 3rd world orphan( Msia is included in this list.should I be glad? or sad?lol)
2. Set up a trust fund for my babies.
3. Be a Charity org.'s ambassador=)
4. Reach my financial independance by 39(Better start planning now for this to happen!!lol)
5. Be happily gay/joyful and content with life~! =)
6. Take good care of my parents =)

Somehow, I dont know what else to add. Wana do something crazy. But Ive just realised, I am quite serious. opppss~! well, will add more from times to times :P
Ppl, keep me stick to my plan! haha . and gv me ideas ppl~! haha

JPA

2009-05-23T02:43:00.000-07:00

Another round of JPA scholarship. Probably the 2nd round after mine. Gosh ,that made me feel damn old. haha .

There's a 17A's kid that got denied for the oversea scholarship, instead, he was offered the local scholarship. I totally understand how unfair he felt. Afterall, I was once a victim ( due to my own foolishness. lol. o shall I be grateful now?)But, this also showed the typical msia attitude we have.( that we deserve everythin in the world, jst bcx of us bein "sumthin" o "sumone") Looking at it, I do hv few words to pen down regarding this system, which I am of the view that it is the government created their own shit instead of us.

Lets start with Msia education system. Government been stating that this scholarship is of very competitive nature as there are many high scorers in our country . thus, it is reasonable that many of these would not be able to make into the circle. However, is that true that we do have that many genius in this country ? If only the government did not lower the passing grade rate, I m sure at least half of these high scorers would not make into the circle of A-string's . This may be cruel, but it is necessary, as the advantages would definitely outweigh the disadvantages. As for one, the real deserving one would get the scholarship as opposed to those who merely scrap through their grade for A's. Besides that, most of our students wont be so arrogant about their results . Look at the students nowaday, try and have a talk with them, especially those who think they are brilliant, and you'll understand what I am trying to say . Thus, if only the initial education system was fair, there would not be much problem on the scholarship.

2nd, in regards to the selection. It was stated that 20% of the scholarship is dependable on students' co-curricular. I myself, am definitely one that will feel unfair although i have various posts in school, which make me to be able to score quite high in it. Reason as to this, is because,it is hard to judge the co-curricular. Does it able to judge my attitude as well? definitely no. Besides, what about my working experiences? how are they to judge it? there are also alot of those idle president, yet they got the same marks as me. Gosh!

I find the co-curricular system to be quite redundant. jst imagine for one to get the medicine schoalrship, he is to be a national state badminton,or swimmer. I , for one, find no relevancy of such with his profession. For certain course, however, a co-curricular achievement would be great, for an example, on management, which falls mainly on your leadership and managaement skill. Nevertheless, as most of the courses offered are for the professionals, which emphasize more on academic, i find it interesting that the governement are jst making their life harder and creating more complains for themselves(co-curricular and academic together is a very subjective issue) Of course, if the students are aiming for US uni, that would be a different story. But, I believe in the equal effort theory.This I shall cover in the next few paragraphs.

3rd,For the government to award the scholarship straight after SPM is quite a big risk to the government and tax-payer money. As the chinese saying goes, one being good at the beginning does not signifies the success in the future. If the students are brilliant, they should learn to score the desired uni on their own efforts. There are students who fall back once they got the scholarship. Although they did not obtain high score for their pre-uni, but they are still able to secure the scholarship. This is absolutely unfair.

By right, the government should put up a conditional offer instead of a firm one. Alternatively, they should award the scholarship only after pre-uni. Afterall, pre-uni course are available everywhere in Msia.

4thly, the system on sponsorship instead of scholarship. It is very important for the government to emphasize that students are to return and contribute to the country moment they graduate. If government is to make our country the education hub, it is even more important to ensure these scorer's return. As told by my friend, the job placement and scholarship were handled by 2 different agency.As such , it is predictable that there would be no coherence between the courses sponsored and job available. This is definitely a waste of our taxpayers money . Definitely, scholars deserve the sponsorship, but not the scholarship. All of us worked hard to pay our study . If you are brilliant, you probably will shine in your academic field, but that doesnt mean its should be a tool for you to earn money. There are so many brilliant scorers out there as well, jst because they have the money , they cant score the scholarship. Why would this be so ? Jst because their rich ? but , think propoerly,isnt those money are hard-earned money too? what justify a poor student to get free money to study when anader average student who is real hardworkin in making ends meet should not get the scholarship? jst because he is hardworkin? In a sense, this is just encouraging people to stop working and hope for the money to drop from sky( which is what happening now) Thus, it is definitely fair to bond a student in this sense. If you are poor, you can still find a way to fund yourself, at least local. Else, you get the sposorship, you just work it off in the future and contribute to the one who sponsor u(ie Us, the taxpayers) BE grateful! n not kacang lupakan kulit. no matter what, you shouldnt get free lunch, merely because you are smart. Even rich or middle class student also earn their money in their own way, they dun just sit and wait.

Besides, our country wants to make the uni here as education hub. As such , I totally find no relevance in them not making sure these scholars to return .If they want to pursue their postgraduate, let it be, but this doesnt justify them to break the bond. you probably could delay , but not letting it go just like that. it may be good that they are self-motivated. but this is not beneficial to the nation(which definitely weigh more than just one individual who is not patriotic) .their returns is essential to ensure the education in Msia to be better , instead of kept falling back bcx of us losing these scholars. Thus, because of the inconsistencies and loose condition on ensuring their return , most of the students aim for this free lunch, which lead to all these mess. If only the system on makin sure their contribution back to country is efficient, I m definite that this would definitely turns lotsa scorers away from applying this. Although this may be cruel, but it is essential to educate ppl, esp students(whose mind still unpolluted) that there is no free lunch in this world, while ensuring a good payback on our tax. Afterall, giving them these money is by forgoing opportunity cost such as improving country health,transport or even economic system!! Dun u knw all these money cn be put in better use? for ppl who is even in worse condition? like poor elder people who cannot afford medical cost, or for inspiring entreprenaurs to get some fund to start their business? Thus, lookin at all these opportunity cost the governemnet forego by puttin in into these scorers. it is definitely justiciable to drag them back to contribute to the country regardless of any reason they gave.

Last but not least, I really find it a total bullshit that these students kept telling nonsense that they deserved a scholarship. Honestly, jst bcx ure hardworking, that doesnt mean u deserve anything. The life is unfair, face it. In fact, you should be grateful that at least your hardwork pays. If hardworks is justiciable for something you think you deserve, then I believe all the janitors should be millionaire now, or even get the scholarship, as compared to nerds/geeks who does nothin other than hiding in books, or even alot of students who worked so hard but couldnt get the desired result bcx of some twist in fate.Now, you may think I have no right to throw all these your face, but let me tell you this, I was once a scholar like you . and I chose the hard route, because I learnt more. I chose not the scholarship, not because I m rich , but because I dun plan to contribute nor comin bak to this country. Thus, I play it the fair way. I dun take those hard-earned taxpayer money for my self pleasure , without contributing back .

Family

2009-02-15T07:24:00.000-08:00

I love my family.Eventho I always scold dem (esp mom) nag them till sometimes I ignore them .
I knw , tis is a weird way of loving ppl . its jst ''ai zhi shen , ze zhi jie''

I m now learnin to let go tho... haha

I still rmb , Celeste told me b4 tat judging from my rationale, most of d times i based my decision by puttin dad as main consideration . Its true.

Dad plays an important role in my life. No one can ever replace him . Mayb afta d blow, I learnt to gv up d tough role I always have..thus, wenever i tok bout him now i tend to hv tears in my eyes. so dumb dumb ! haha .

M leavin in jst a yr n anader 3 mths. counting down , n m loving it .. I guess, I m nt tat filial afta all. I m scared , definitely . homely . xtremely homely . yet, i need to learn . I need to grow up..I , dun wana b like my bro . stress on tat alot! haha.

I knw , I m sensitive n possesive. wateva belongs to me , belongs to me . includin ppl . its good n bad . So,I always make sure no one bully d one i treasure.. bt wt if its her/his choice?

Sometimes, love can b stressful to ur loved ones.

So ,today , I told bro bout takin mom to doc n avthin . I decided nt to care. dad n mom were shocked. I knw. example, dad was tokin bout askin bro dey all join us today . Usually,I'll complain alot. but today , I jst kept quiet n let him go on . I teased dad bout takin car without permission . Dad was harsh . He jst said he cn tk wateva mine at anytime bcx it belongs to d hse. Its true. So , I dun argued. I jst wana move on . Its sad to hear tat bt I tink its good bcx it gv me a chance to live my own life. Afta al, I m nt tat important in d family I guess.

Bro slightly complaint bout me . I was tellin him to take care of babies well n save money for deir edu . Sumhow rather, he jst mentioned d 100k . I tink he really cared.n little bit jealous . I hv a feelin we r gonna fight bcx of d will n takin care of parents in d future. Bro is still dreamy n kept wishin tat we hv properties o tat money can drop from sky to him . I wish it is for him too . But even if he did , he stil wont b rich . unless he change his financial attitude.

But ,Ive chosen nt to care. Bcx I knw, I m in no good position to judge any1 nymore. I kinda love tis new me. D one hu knw wat life is . Its depressin , suicidal . Yet,once I gt thru tis, I knw avthin gonna b orite:)

Mum was sad. She felt guilty over nt informin o askin my permission bout d car. But come on lar~!Ive knw mum throughout my life. She jst wana appears to b nice to avone, even wen it hurts her. she is nice. But I dun wana make myself unhappy anymore. I need my life. Not tat i chose nt to love her anymore. Its jst,she needs to learn .

So , wen I told bro bout her doc appointment, bro was like''I always bring her wurt.. I m always d one'' . Mum , kept quiet. I gues, bcx she was wounded by dose words. by sayin those,tat jst showed how unwilling bro is with taking care of her. n how I m goin to gv up helpin her. She actually thanked me wen we reached home . thanked me forr bein thr for her al d time . Sorry tho , no matter how pitiful she made herself, o how grateful she showed, I jst need to learn to let go of her oso . We both need to learn . I jst hope, bro sumday will realised how much he made mum suffer..

Rite now, I jst need to let go of my family, n let go of myself at d same time . Wen d time comes, I'll jst start avthin all over again .

I love dem ,but if my love hv done more damage den good, its better to let go .

M learning, to love myself oso .

Pray to god.

2009-02-06T21:28:00.000-08:00

Depression,depression, surpression.
I guess, being an optimist is not a good option afta all. I screwed it up.
I am now undergoing my journey of recovery.
Let me try n recall wat had happened .
Ive been tryin to get a scholarship ever since form 4. It first started with me having the Asean scholarship in form3. It was a partial scholarship.Yet,I rejected it. No regret, as I am not a geek who love studying all the time and I prefer to spend time with friends n family. thus, as a compensation,Ive been researching various scholarships. Den ,there comes the time, my form 5.

Ive been talking to dad before that, and everytime i talk to him about it, he never gave me the support that I have always wanted. I knew he was reluctant to let me go. I did cry because others parents been hoping their child to grow up n get a scholarship except him. I know, my family still needs me. But there's a strong desire in me wanting to fly.

I thought of workin straight after my f5. giving myself a break because I really really want to explore the world outside. But my dad stopped me.

I guess, I m nt ready for d scholarship back den ? First, I did not plan to b lawyer. Thus, having the bond will just freak me out. Second, my family still needs me,and not having my parents blessing in applying it is definitely something I wouldnt want to see. . I still remember the expression on my dad everytime he hears me telling him that i want to run .

Next, there are lotsa scholarships available that are free from bond.thus, I was aiming for those... until I forgotten there's sumthin in life called twist.

But,bear in mind, I remember I planned to settle down in oversea. Thus, I dont want to have those bond in me. By d time I am done with the bond ,I'll be 30 . Might as well just get a loan and study master there. that way,I can get my career established at there by 30 . I just felt insecure now bcx everyone's been tellin me tat d job market in uk is saturated.
Nevertheless, If I really cant get a job thr, I can always work there and earn money and go to the States n study my JD(aander lawyer qualification) . States need lawyers. Jst hard to get my visa.Yet, options r wide. It jst takes a longer time. But, I cn settle down oversea alredi.

If I choose bond, most probably I'll be complacent wit my status here,dat I'll jst settle down here,which is something I wouldnt wan to be.
Thus, based on these, n d ego in me bak den(tinkin i cn scored staight al d time) , I chose not to apply for bonds.
Besides, I really wana jst come out n work n start my own business.
I could hv get those bonds n pay them bak . But I knw its hard to pay bak.Might as well,I tk a loan to go to oversea n study n get a job thr to pay bak.

However, twist of ffate happened. I screwed up my Alevel.
n den , I realized ,not all JPA scholars are bonded.
n my batch of scholars qualification r ok.
I realised, scorin a scholarship may make ur resume looks better n increase ur emplyability.
To start a business requires great network n $$$.great network require great resume.
(which I blive I still can start small business now. jst tat i wana score my scholarship still)

Ppl been tellin me tat d rascism is strong. But bear in mind tat I hear these from those who came bak.I havnt hear those who manage to secure a place thr. Tokin bout loser mentality .

No such thing as u being good n ppl will knw. bullshit. D firms want those hu grad fro reputable uni. To grad from reputable uni,either u get bond, or u pay wit ur own money. U may get scholarships, but it covers only partial. so its still about $$$. U dn hv to b smart, u jst need $$$.
Ppl wont knw ure good until u showed them u got a scolarship. Ive been listenin auties telling parents hu-hu-n-hu got this n tat. n I felt ashamed tat bcx of my eagerness to venture on my own n my stubborness in wantin to create my own destiny, my parents couldnt b d one hu said ''oh ,btw, my doteer result is good. as a proof, she got d scholarship'' all dey can do now is jst ''my doter is good but she is now studyin in HELP'' .Talkin bout bringin disgrace to family.I guess, I m a black sheep indeed.

I may still go to d States afta dat. but I need to collect money 1st. Jst tat , anader tot came in .Do i really wana be lawyer?? Now tat I m half way thru n sacrificed so much , I realized deep down inside, I really wana venture dis field.

Yet, hard to b lawyer in Uk. I might jst b an excutive o even waitress for few yrs b4 i cn study my JD. U tink my parents will allow me ? o dey wil jst force me to come home? sigh.If I were to come home afta so much efforts, might as well I secure a bond at d 1st place.

No such thing as effort equals to result.lotsa frens of mine work harder in form6 n local coll. external. But end of d day, firms may opt for oversea grads den local.Its better honestly bcx our local system is educating imitation machines n not even good workers. which is why I chose coll instead of f6 at d 1st place.

Den , thr comes d time. Wen I should be payin for my own mistake in screwin up my A level, my dad is payin for it. I told dad tat if I chose to study 2 yrs here n I continue my WAT prog,I will be able to support myself alone oversea for my final year. How naive was tat!Because, dad decided to jst pay n as a favour, I m not allowed to work .I fellt really unhappy. Bcx , I m usin dad's money for my happiness. but is thr happiness in me now? i would say no. I guess this is d thing tat really bother me . using his money.

D thing is, even if i do hv money, o my dad has it, it should be contributed to d family n not me. thus, I m jst increasin d burden . furthermore, I need to tink about allowances .even if I do hv enuff money to spend on necessities, I still need some money to spend goin out wit frens.Thus, d easiest way now for me is by choosin to be a loner.

How ashamed I was,being d smartest, n yet d one who spent d most in edu. Talkin bout ironies. lol.

I realised,racism exists avwhr. rite now, I dun mind workin anywhr. either msia, aus,uk,usa o anywhr. Thus, if i get a bond, I would grab it n settle down here. If I dont, den I might as well settle in other countries. its jst a choice nyway.I m jst afraid my family cant take d fact of me not settling down straight afta my study.I really really wana run .

I knw, my ego n naivety n overconfident has lead me to dis price. I learnt my lesson. I m jst .. hoping for a second chance.

1 and a half to go

2009-01-04T04:39:00.000-08:00

Hurray~! Afta 3 mths of rotting at home , at last i m goin to coll~~~!! hahaha .Jst cant wait to meet new frens ,expands network,indulge into d world of books. Altho it would b in d expense of my dad's money . But I m sure it wil pay off in d future~! Rite now, i jst hope my dad survives well in his finance management~! Felt like crying al d time ,thinkin how useless i m . But o well, nothing can b done, n al these are spent for good. so:)

Once i start avtin ,I'll start applyin scholarships too ~! Hopefully I can score sum scholarship to relieve d burden . But if by chance i get a course which requires longer time length o bond, u think i should go for it ? hahah . jst a tot.

If possible, I would like to get a job at thr too.Its gonan b so lame n embarassin (aftal ,I m quite egoistic n princess:P) but well,jst part of d learnin process..:)

Went to d hopital today wit mei ... I was freaked out tis mornin wen I saw her dad. Was tinkin exactly d same thing wat she was thinkin. Afta al, we hv been family for so long ! :) Luckily,its jst a strok . really thank god for tat. n d best part? nothin was wrong aftamath ..uncle was regainin conscious. else, I really duno wat else to do . Nearly burst into tears tis mornin . But I tried to be strong bcx mei mei needs me:) Gurl, if ure readin this, I jst wana say ,m really proud of u , esp ur strength ,courage n resiliency in goin thru al these. no worries honey , will b here :) u can always cry on my shoulder if u wan . FOC, tho i knw it wont b as comfortable as ur future companion:P

startin from tmr, counting down , anader one an d a half yr to leave d place I called home n embark my new destiny :)

Destiny

2008-12-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

Do you blive in destiny ?

Its interesting to see how life works.
Sum ppl, works hard for d whole life to get peanuts.
Whereas sum dun even hv to work to enjoy d fruits they have.

Wats my destiny ? I seriously hv no idea.

Its really funny how things worked.
I used to think effort is parallel to result.
Thus, I worked real hard for everything.
I mean , REAL HARD~! lol .
But end of d day ,I jst dun get d thing tat i want.
Yet, when I choose to chill and let things b d way it should,
miracle happens.

I guess, god is trying to let me learn .
Learn to b humble,
learn to enjoy d world d way it is,
learn to let go ,
learn to accept and forget.

Testing me,
testing my patience,
testing my humbleness,
testing my temper and kindness.

I wish,I'll pass HIS test.

Its time ,
to negotiate d god's bargain .

Native Heritage Centre

2008-12-08T06:18:00.002-08:00

Last outing with four of us together... sobs... Native Heritage Centre.. whr we get to explore on d life of d natives thr...
Four of us infront of d log cabin , d visitor centre..waiting for d bus tat brin us to d centre..
In front of d Heritage Centre..
D map of it.. thr's a lake n seven villages altogether thr..
She's one of d natives thr.. look v chinese rite? humty dum.. probably i came from thr too..lol
Sitin on d real polar bear.. d eyes r fake tho..

ITs whale bone if i mnot wrong... jst posin for fun ..ahha

Posing with d real fox fur...hahaha
erm..jst typical museum visitin kinda stuff..but so long four of us together..things r fun~~!!:) too bad jon n patrick r leavin soon..

State fair

2008-12-08T06:18:00.001-08:00

Went to d state fair together with charles,patrick , kevin n alex..mnay many thx to kevin for bein our patron ..lol..he is d one hu paid for our food n ticket...thx alot!:)

alex,kevin,charles,me n patrick..
Elephant ear.. doesntl look like 1 for me.. jst normal fried flour with sprinkled sugar , topped wit strawberry jam..
Turkey leg~~ superb!! love it.. but pretty big for one..ahha
Sheep.. thr's a baby animal barn thr.. but we din go inside n touch dem due to time;s constraint.
Me n kevin playin sum game..hahah
CAramel apple.. real high in calorie.. but hu cares~ lol.
Llama..its a baby llama..
Thr's a vege competition n this is d winner for d cabbage? duno wats d vege name d..hahah

3usd for a personality test..v lame.. o well, jst for fun..hahaits sum kind of fake snow...hahah.

Flattop

2008-12-08T06:17:00.001-08:00

Thr u go.. pics of us at d flattop.. it was a real great experience.. n a life-discovery journey . it'd a real hiking kind of mountain whr thr's no stairs nor fence... At 1st, I tot its jst normal stair climbin n how I was wrong !
Pic of us at d beginnin of our journey .. the sun was settin down.but we dun really care,bcx we tot its jst sum small hiking..
This is d mountain we climb . full fo lcouds at tat time cx its near dawn alredi . this white colour thingy look like a US map.. with d small dot as Hawaii n right side as Alaska.haha
D view from half way up d mountain.
Thr we are..walkin up..this is still d easy path.. but was pretty scared bcx thr's no fence..n it's already 20 o 30 feets from ground. sumore, i was wearin jeans n old rugged black shoes . so kinda scared tat i'll slip down n die.. tat time, suddenly, avthing does not matter anymore .. hu care i dun get good result.., hu care i hv rship prob o not.. not even wat my aim is.. all ic are is jst my life.. i jst wana survive.. tats all.. tat's d moment i realized i should cherish my life more.. n stop down relax instead of chasing nonsense hypocrite n materialistic stuff...
Stil half way up d peak only.. but u cn see its quite high from ground adi ..
startin to track d rock.. frens started to gv up.. but i jst stubbornly follow our guide.. tat moment all i think of is jst to conquer d mountain n leave no resentment..tats all .ahhaha.. at last, dey follow oso..kesian
Climbing d mountain alredi...,

At last, d peak !! It's 2500 feets above d ground.. magnificent view, undescribeable experience...

Thr, d view from top, as it was dawn .. we cn see both d moon n sun at d same time..
This is d sweet couple tat guide us al d way to d top. without dem ,we would hv stop halfway thinkin tat d half way was d top.. kudos to dem !:)

As u can see ,d moon is rising at dis side..
At d other side, d sun is setting down... too bad we couldnt stay long thr.. ncx we need to climb down d mountain b4 d sun gets down..else, we would b stranded thr d...

Thr u can see, how steep it is ... so scary !!! totally a life time experience... n i wish i cn b thr again !

Honestly, I was really proud tat i aint dead d moment we reached our car.... thr r times wen i tot of givin up.. but d words given by d girl ''almost thr'' really motivate me.. wenever i wana gv up .. i jst think ''almost thr'' n i jst move on .. n move n move.. until d peak .... n suddenly avthing is jst worth d price... I m nt gonna giv up easily anymore! not anymore...n I m goin to try my best in avthing.. without setting d boundaries o prejudice b4 hand... tats wat i learnt from this mountain climbin .. tats all.. fuh ! at last manage to update u guys on d things tat happened on tat day... haha.. but thr's still anader outing of us at d state fair!! goosh...
Bt d state fair pic is with you cheng , upload next time..hehe

Whittier,Pottier Marsh,Flattop

2008-12-08T06:16:00.000-08:00

Hurray! Its anader sunday again .. n off we go to d Whittiel for d glacier cruise..
On d way to Whittiel
ME.D poser.hahah
Us at d Whittel town . like d pic.. damn yau yeng .haha
D lake in whittiel , had our lunch dere..so nice~~
D red dots is d cruise line we took.philipps cruise

Cute baby ! mixture of asian-western.heard tat her momma graduated from harvard sumore.cun!
cant resist from d temptation of huggin her..haha
Galcier view.... lots of it sumore...hahah..nice .. would say worth d price...
Us on d ship
tat's d glacier upclose.its fresh snow... but i cant get to touch it.. hopefully it will snow in sept.. b4 i go bak..

me. holdin d glacier ice. we even drank d glacier ice.lol

Afta tat, we drop by Alyeaska resort on our way bak. it's v famous for skiing n snowboardin..but its summer now.so..sigh.
tats d tram tat iwll brin ppl up to d mountain for d snow activities/
Us . posin at d lake o fountain in front of resort.

Den we dropped by Pottier marsh oso to view d wetland life thr. bumped into a moose on our way thr..haha
thr it is, jst bside d road, sumtimes ppl will hit on dem on d road too..so hv to b careful as these animals r pretty precious..

sigh.. we went to climb flattop oso .. n ytd, we went to d state fair..so many things ttat happned to me..it is all fo happy n great things.. but stupid connection..swt.. will continue soon

Karma

2008-12-08T06:15:00.000-08:00

Do u blive in karma? ie, when u did sumthin wrong, sumthin bad will befall u n vice versa? well, I do .. n I guess this ending is one of d best ending of all..

At d beginnin of my journey , I guess few of my frens do knw tat I was bullied by d msian ppl here.. those few cinapek tat's real annoying n irritating. they backstabed me in front of managers which ended up me bein kicked out from starbucks n go to quizznos.. but today..

those three ppl tat I wouldnt like to mention d names, are sufferin deir consequences..
A n B, dey r now terribly sick .. n all d managers knw deir ill behavious towards me.. so not only dey warned dem about it , even my colleague warned dem too.. n dey r sick for few weeks.. tat now dey cant even work well , n not to mention , steal sum xtra time to earn xtra wages.. hahah

C, on d other hand, is a workaholic hu used to b my nite shift partner.. he did earn d most money among us , but wat he had lost is uncomparable to d money he has earned.He is now a loner hu has no travelin companion .. nt to say ,sumone hu will help him wen he's in deep shit. He even get close to Charles so tat charles can hep him out by changin shift wit him..but haha,its too late...
He is now sufferin not only his health(he look so pale n gloomy now) but oso all his time on vacation. now tat he has only 2 weeks left here, he hasnt even goes to seward o whittier to watch those spectacular scenes tat i shared with my hsemates.. He cant even hav a week off for himself to do his own vacation ! hahahahha. god bless. avday , I'll jst see him alone, mayb with A o B , but tats all.. n avday , no one wana talked to him , cx he talks only money ..money ..n money...swt.n now tat i m gone, he has to do avthing on his own.. until sumtimes he kept askin charles to stay bak n help him.. n manager Hae is unsatisfied with his work.. n she knws in d end hu's d one hu did d job all dis while

Whereas me?hahahahha. real good ending .1stly,Manager Kerry has been by my side all dis while, so wen i was trasferred to Quizznos, i get to hv lotsa overtime to compensate my lost in starbucks tippin..hahaha , great! den manager Jimmy hu saw me workin all dis while oso helped me by allowin me to clock in wenever i asked for it.. so more overtime!!hahaha .. o ya.. overtime rate is 12.25 usd per hr.. so ..even more lucrative pay den usual hr ie 8.25.hahah. n den now , even d STarbucks manager,Hae wants me bak! so now , I would most probably b transferred bak to starbuck soon.. but kerry like me too!! so both of dem r discussin hard bout my schedule..ahhaha.. once ABC gone,I'll b d one hu have most access to avwhr.. n i hv a feeling tat HAe felt guilty over me,bcx bein d one hu is famous for nt givin xtratime... not only she allows me to overtime in starbuck .. but she oso nvr mention how long I cn stay thr even afta me askin her... tat means, I cn jst stay as long as i want..wakakaka.. but I nvr did bad things la.. I seriously work until dey dun need my help n I'll leave..hehehe

Tat's all.. n thr's even more better things tat happened to me around here.. will put it in my next post.. this time.. would be my braggin time.. I m goin to write bout my admirers here!! hahahahaah:P

till den , tata:P

Zoo,Glacier Brew house and Jewel Lake!

2008-08-18T12:48:00.000-07:00

Went for an outing with Charles last saturday (10 Aug ) but due to my schedule n laziness in writing ..ahhahah ..now only I have d time to jot things down here.
Zoom in to have a larger view on the animals tat we have visited tat day . hehe

Harry potter's hedwig is having its rest thr.haha., this female snow owl had broken its wing as a result of being stuck in an incinerator on one of its fly .
Snow leopard. crazy d.. avday jst walk back n forth in its cage.pity.
Celebrity of d day !! cute porcupine! haha
My relayive, mata sepet polar bear.hahahah
Bald Eagle.
Caribou.
Wolf.. v big in size
Swan .. so elegant!! dey dun swim .. dey jst float....sweet!!
Alpaca.. cute~! jst like me:P
Me.In front of d entrance.. jst a so-so trip.Was nt v excited on it for d whole morning..

But afta tat , we went to have our lunch in one of d most recommendable restaurant in downtown ,Glacier Brewhouse
Tis is d front view of d reataurant.

D environment inside is v condusive for a fine dining.. there are only whites , we were d only asian thr other than a group of asian tourists.

Tis bread is given for free as starter. Charles had to teach me how to eat it using olive oil n pepper sumore . so memalukan !!!Now only I knw how kampung i am . swt. Dad, its time for u to bring me out for fine dining adi ! else, I'll embarass u only...haha
Me. Drinking d White Peach Italian Soda.
Main Course # 1: Alaskan Grilled Wild Sockeye Salmon..Superb!! Luv d sauce on d plate
!hehe Main Course # 2: Brewhouse Fish and Chips .Chips were normal.. but d Halibut fish is v fresh !:)

Dessert:Chocolate Passion Cheesecake.. yummy!!!! hahahaha..

Nevertheless, i still think tat this restaurant is overrated.. Still prefer chinese cuisine.. lookin at d way they cooked it,it's jst similar to d Chilis tat we always had in d airport.. tho I mst say d food here is more refined.. n hav fishes!! god.. miss fishes alot.. No fish at all in all d aiport menu tat I ate avday ..swt.
Overall,it was 43 usd.. but we paid 55 including d tips to d server..hahaah.. try n convert it into msia tinggit n it would b a real pain in d ass..hahaha.. but I dun mind, cx at least I manage to try sum fine local food thr:P Nyway , d bill was split into 2,so it's still considered ok .. cx d normal meal here usually cost around 10 usd also..
U can visit their website for more info too. www.glacierbrewhouse.com

Next stop for anader big spending on food would be simon seafort:P

Afta tat , we went n loiter around downtown .. n had a walk at d Coastal Trail..
Tat's d trail.. nice view rite??tat's jst d entrance.. d whole trail is 12 miles long.. Due to d time constraint.. we din really track d trail.. well, hopefully I'll b able to do it again soon..eheh
Me . At d Elderberry Park . It was pretty sunny day .., n thr's ppl reading book under d tree thr.. so nice!!! cn nvr see this in msia.. den , we get bak to d bus n head bak home..

Yet,Nt having enuff of all of these, We decided to explore places around our neighbourhood..n Wala!

Thr's a lake jst nearby us! hahaha.It's called Jewel Lake. Tat's our address name too..hehe.. thr was a comunity gathering when we were thr.. n thr's ppl playing volleyball n even swimmin thr!! at d temperature of 16 celcius degree! swt .. n thr's ppl wearing bikini. thr's a lady whu wear low-V shirt n sengaja bend down infront of charles sumore.. n Charles was enjoyin it with his shade on !! swt betul!! hahahha..Hopefully, we cn have a picnic thr soon , b4 you cheng n jon left us..hahah... We were thr around late evenin.. n enjoyed d sunset thr ~~!! hahaah :P

Tat's all for d sunday... Well,we've jst went for anader Whittiel outing ytd... will update it soon afta I've got d pic.. all i can conclude from yts's outing is: 'I aint Dead n m proud of it! '' hahah ..
To be continued...

Wei Ling, Aug 17

SEWARD

2008-07-28T04:33:00.001-07:00

Went to Seward 2 days ago... It was superb ! jst like a dream ... hahaah .., d scenery was magnificent.. we went for d cruise thr. quite expensive but worth d price. around 100 usd. rented a car n Charles drove al d way thr bcx he is d only one above 21. we nearly couldnt get d car due to age prob ( mst use credit card n charles dun hv one.swt) Luckily We stil got it in d end. but kinda sad tat I wasnt thr wit dem to solve d prob . was workin. In fact, I mst admit tat I din do much on plannin for tis trip.haha. feel real nice bout it:P I guess bein d youngest gurl does hv its own advantage:P

Me. Posing in front of d car. Was on d way to Seward.d view is .. soooooo pretty !!!

Me n Jon .heheh .Anader hsemate of mine.

Three of us posing in front of d petrol station . can ya imagine how nice it is to b thr ?!!! hahaha. Can nvr experience tis in msia.

Us in front of d ship for our cruise.heheh

Thr u go. D sea lions. they r not dead. jst havin deir sun bathe. real lazy creature.
Puffins.Dey swims, Dey fly n dey dive!! Amazing creature.. m real amazed by d wonder of nature.. i mean .. d weather is so cold n thr's stil so many interesting creatures around.. lookin at dem moving around lively is jst soooooo spectacular!!!

Hahahhaha. even d XO Remy Martin mascot is having its break thr.haha

Camrates.. o sumthin like tat. duno how to spell it.hahah

Me on d cruise. It was chilly thr! But I love it! not for long tho. It's nt jst normal kind of wind.. it's icy wind, I mean , u can feel n even smell d ice in d wind!! undescriable experience!! love it. how i wish to b thr again !! hehehe . thr's even glacier along d sea...nice!!

Us at d fox island. this is d stop for us to hv our lunch in d cruise!! nice place.. sort of like a stranded island. cn imagine ourselves taking movie thr..hahahha

Me n Charles at d signboard.haha

Tat's our lunch.It's a buffet. we had salmons!!! bread, sweet corn ,salad, n dessert.. d corn was real sweet n d salmon is nice!!! i ate 4 pieces of salmons thr.wakkakakakka.

Jon takin d dessert. forgotten to take d pic of d dessert .so use tis as substitute.hahah. thr's alot of food thr..ahhaha.. got choc cake, fruits n nuts, n apple brownie.. nice! superb!!hahhahPlayin wit d stone b4 we go bak to d ship.. d stones are all flat.. interestin!

Afta tat, we went to d Sealife centre .. these r d pics..Its way interesting to b thr den bein in our country's life centre o wateva it is.hahah
d giant squid. 3.5 metres.its dead tho.. been preserved thr since 2000.. eewwww~~!!

Me .grabbin a starfish! hahaha . we r allowed to touch sum of d sea animals thr.. but d water is real chilling . 5 celcius degree.swt

Seal.. anader lazy creature.. but real flexible in water.. jst like a ballerina..it did sum freestyle swimmin for me sumore..hahaha

Follow up, we went to d Exit Glacier around 8 pm on our way home.. luckily , we made it on time!!! Else, i'll regret it for d whole life of mine!! hahaah .. Glacier is sort of layers of ice tat doesnt melt over yrs.. erm.. u al better check wiki for this.hahah. dunno how to explain :P

D view from far. We tracked around an hr for it.. totally worth d price!! luckily oso. Tat digested d bulk amount of food I consumed in fox island.haha
Me n Charles wit d view behind us.haha

Anader scenic view durin our track to d edge of glacier.

At last, we r thr d!!!!! heheh.. nice rite? D ice is in blue~~!!!!! can feel n smell ice at thr!! haha.
Tat's me. closing my eyes. Feeling d breath of ice n listenin to d movement of gravity pulling d ice.. nice~~~!!!

Me in front of d glacier..haha.vain me.

At last, I m goin to end tis post wit d video of whale movin in d sea...ehhehe.. enjoy~~!!:)

cinema

2008-07-24T18:22:00.001-07:00

went to d cinema wit you cheng ytd..hahahha. but bcx i was v tired n furthermore d movie has no subtittle.. so..ended up, fallen asleep throughout d movie. hahahah. the dark knight. no nice oso.. den charles oso scolded me for not appreciatin d movie. lol. wasted 6.75 usd for nothin .hehe.. bought d popcorn thr oso. at 4.75 usd. but not nice to eat oso. it's only of butter n popcorn . oily n tasteless.swt. miss msia's popcorn so much!!!!!1 esp d caramel smell!!! my god!! can die for it..hahahaMy girls, u all mst b thinkin nonsense when i told u al tat i m goin for movie wit you cheng only..ahahaha. sort of la. i slept on his shoulder throughtout d movie. den he was like pretty scared to look at me..wakakakkakakka. afta i woke up, his shoulder v pain adi..kesian betull.. he is a v nice guy la.. but no spark:P i told him bout me n jc's story nyway .hehe. he had a similar story like mine oso, but he plays jc's role.hahah.btw, al dis while, i slept on charles's shoulder alot of times oso. so u al dun hv to assume anything. heheheh . no spark means no spark . cant do anythin .hehehe.. should be mei o yen comin here lo. bcx dey r of u gurls' type of horoscope.hahah.
Was cryin d other day , thx to celeste la! lol. den , you cheng saw ..swt. den borrow his shoulder again ,n afta tat , he belanja me taco bell n taught me dancing sumore!!! bt now i realized how intimate a waltz should be...kinda ''gan ga'' .wakakakakaakka
this is d result of my bakin today . looked kinda ugly i knw, but edible n quite nice wei~~ heehhe. You cheng's aunt gave us lotsa fishes d other day . around 20 of dem .hehe. due to d lack of resources, i decided to use d salt n pepper (taken from d restaurant n etc etc..hahah) to marinate it. quite nice lo d outcome. hhahha. tat's al for today .heheh

i m thinkin of takin honey n lemon juice to bake it.. anyone tried tis recipe b4???

al of this spices, r taken from d restaurant..hahahahah.. so u al cn imagine how ''aunty'' i've bcome..ahhahahaha.. wat can i do.. need to save money mar~~ wakkakakak:P

bullied

2008-07-22T18:16:00.000-07:00

Wei Ling kena bullied wei~~!!! lol.
D bitch aka witch stephy(my x-techer;s doter) went n bitch bout me in front of avone bhind my bak , includin my agent(vernie) my managers n my colleague. swt.she told dem tat i m not responsible, nt doin anythin n etc etc. wth . wen most of d time, i m really workin . n her darlin , wayne, jst simply curi masa n does nothin .
den rite, heard tat my nite shift partner oso wana complain bout me . tat's v weird. i confronted him b4, n he said no issue, n now?!?!! i took over his shift d other day , n ended up wit a mess, bcx thr were too many ppl tat nite, i ta sempat clean up, n den i was blur wit d requisition papaer, n did a mistake on tat. so stepjjhy jst empahsixed my mistake. n i think han knw bout it too. nyway , i gguess one of d reason he is pissed is bcx i m takin obver his time too. n i started to mingle wit managers d, which is bad for dem .
as usual, i m unpredictable. so i guess, tat really pissed dem .
let's see.. in stb , only me, charles n you cheng nt deir gang . you cheng , is taiwanese, n quiet, so no issue. charles, got d least hrs , aftannon shift(wont bump dem ) n he is a senior, cannot bullied, so no issue. me??? hahahha. avday mingle with managers, get more n more hrs, n bump dem d most.. so !! wakakkakak. kena kau2 . swt betul.
I dun really care tho. AFtaal, just here for 3 mths ma.. but wen i realized vernie knw bout it d, wa... kinda pissed off n think i should do sumthin lo.. cx i stil need to maintain image in front of her so tat i cn continue my 2nd trip o even others. swt.
Hard to survive . bcx hard to bump my gang but avday hv to meet dose stupid fella.
luckily charles stood up for me... else, i died lor.hahaha

late

2008-07-20T18:28:00.000-07:00

Shit! m late for my work . charles is so goin to kill me . bcx he might nt b able to catch d last bus too.lol. swt.

Life here is pretty much d same. 1st time, I bcome so downgraded. i mean , i dun mind bein late, i dn care bout my perfomance(hu cares since wateva i do oso i receive d same pay with no promotion ) hahah .i dn mind stealin from starbuck , in fact i love takin stuff from thr(aftal, dey r goin to throw ir away wurt) i dn even care bout overtime. which is v bad.. cx i need lotsa it to breakeven .hahahha

received my 1st pay ytd. but kinda low compared to sum of dem .hahahha. but hu cares!! swt.. i tink my tidak-apa attitude is coming out wei ~~ sigh .,

alone

2008-07-16T21:16:00.000-07:00

Afta so many days n nites of workin together with people,at last I get to work alone for my shift!!:) Alot of dem called me silly for bein happy bein alone in starbuck. Aftaal, it's real hard to actually ring n make d drink at d same time. Yet, for me, it's a great opportunity to challenge myself to break through d limit. Things were quite ok until d peak hour came tho .. was bz all d way till stephy came .. hahahah . but o well, d tippings were great!! 1st time ever, i received 30++ tippin for a day!!! wakkakaka:P
tat's al for now:P
www.glacierbrewhouse.com
still tryin my best to save money to eat in dis restaurant.hahahahha:P

at last, sum guys pic for u al. lol.

2008-07-16T21:13:00.002-07:00

Here's some of d pics taken usin you cheng's camera..D buildin bhind is d place we went to apply for our security badge.

Me n You Cheng . My new acquintance from Taiwan .He's a dancer!!! WAltz dancer.Sumday, i m goin to learn to dance from him ! hahaha
Duno y he smiled so bright in a sudden tho. jst random pic.hahaha
Me n Charles kor kor. We look like siblings rite?? hehehe .pity him .kena bullied al d time.ahhah

random

2008-07-16T21:13:00.001-07:00

pic taken by han hung. tat's han , ashley n me. three of us work d nite shift. I looked so tiny tho. hehe
Me at d lake shore park . a long time ago pic.hahahah

random tot

2008-07-15T17:35:00.002-07:00

Real bored now. thx to my manager,Hae, for makin my shift a total haywire, i m now waitin for my time to work d graveyard shift again (been workin d mornin n aftanoon shift for d past 2 days, so d biological clock goes cacat again )

hmm.. goin to write my tot afta so long of a period.

I mst said, afta so many weeks of experiencin a diff path of life,i m missin my home d.. i mean , my family,frens, my life.. but nt coll:P but if i were to choose to stay o go bak , i'll still choose to stay. In fact, i m now seriously hopin o even plannin for anader gateaway for myself. I dunwana b protected foreva under anyone's umbrella. Tat's jst so not me. Afta avthing ends, if anyone ask me whether i stil wana stay o return , i 'll say i wana stay . but i wont b long here too. i would b goin other places afta tat. my curiosity is too high n i get bored pretty fast. I knw, dad is real sad avtime i tel him i wana leave my home. I mean , our home.Luckily dad knw me well enuff to actually let me b free in doin things tat i wan to do . else, I'll rebel even more. thx dad for tat!:)Dn worry, no matter whr i go , I m still ur precious doter, n u'll still b my one n only greatest dad of d world!:) but pls, dun tie me up , o i'll rebel more. Let me b free, n I'll come bak wen d time comes:)

Let's see wat I've learnt here. Hmm..I realized I've been real naive all dis while. erm, not to say naive , but rather, yeah! clumsy, forgetful , n thick-skinned(like wat Charles alwizz said.haha) It's really diff workin wit a total stranger environment as compared to workin in own country wit few frens. at least , u cn stil chat wit frens n get ur own alliance. Here, 1st, u need to adopt to deir workin culture.2nd, ure a stranger to avone,n no one knw how old u r. dey alredi hv deir own alliance. so no one wil helps u other den u urself. I used to use my age as a weapon , whereby d elders alwix tend to take care of me more n I dun hv to ask for anythin ( dey will jst provide me almost avthing.haha ) But here, i learnt to survive on my own . Bcame xtremely thick skinned.haha . I realized, If i dun ask for it , I wont get it. If I ask for it, at least I'll hv 50% of chance in gettin it.

Life's unfair. Tat's it. dun ever think tat I m lucky o watsoever. I fight for wateva I want. i fought even harder den anyone else. But not all d time,I'll get d outcomes I want. N now, I learnt nt to work hard but work smart. It's so unfair at 1st wen I've seen ppl gettin more hrs den me n yet does lesser stuff den me. cn ya imagine ppl clockin in an hr early n went n lepak for an hr b4 dey start d work ? n by d moment dey finish lepak, dey already earned 8.5 usd. By jst LEPAKIN! yeah , it's Rm24 to b precise. N den , dey cn stil get praises by d ppl bcx dey r damn gd in actin in front of d superior. While me , I m still terrible in bondin wit d superior, so i jst worked n worked n worked, hopin for d recognition . but now, no more. thank you , but hell, I m nt a slave to anyone :) I will still work hard, but nt bcx of wantin of recognition , jst self satisfaction n own commitment. One more lesson i need to learn is to b more carefree n knwing how to bend my way in front of d superior( it's time to throw d old chinese principle of mine away ) yeah , I used to b scared of elders n superior. but now, I realized , to get my way , I mst learn to stand equally in front of dem ... still a long way to go for me, bcx i m still terrible in communicatin wit ppl n I mst acquired tat skil asap . haha.

It's really diff. I guess it's bcx of my studious background, whr I mostly learn to stick by d rules n rigidity n booksmart kind of thingy . my street smart suckz. yeah ! to d max! hahaha .

Th's no such thing of you bein a msia-an n ur own country's frens wil help u . Tat's total bullshit.
Here, 1st person tat let me realized I hv to stand on my own is a bunch of stupid cinapek msia-an ., yeah . u heard me. I m now speakin rude words. Sorry , but yeah , I m angry ! So , learnt to b independant n nt to rely on anyone. But , as usual , I m still pretty lucky to hv my current housemates wit me. I guess,I mst thank god for tat.So in d end, i m stil nt totally independant, but next time, i will choose to travel alone:) Waitin to meet anader new culture. hehe

Tat's al for now. am I bein stronger n better now? I m nt sure myself. Only my actions tells.One thing i m sure, Life's a long learnin journey for me n thr's so much for me to learn ..

museum

2008-07-15T17:35:00.001-07:00

made of real squirrel skin . took approximately 45 squirrel to make 1 parka. swt. gross!!! sigh.. but ig uess tat's wat ull do wen ure desperate..
me. kissin d bear. lol. sigh.. duno wat pther pose i cn tk d.. sigh.. nt in d mood of camwhorin.. i had jst finished my 15 hrs workin shift at tat time. n it should b my sleepin time.lol.
real beaver skin . hahah. kinda bored. it's more of an art gallery than museum .. sigh
this is a photo taken by some profesional photographer . real nice~~ i think yen should b d one visitin here instead of me.haha

3D art . it's a wood carving piece. looked so real tat i dun even realised it's made of wood.

tat's all. kinda bored. wanted to go to d zoo. but ended up workin til 1.pm . so only manage to make it for d museum . pity charles had to wait for me for 5 hrs at home. hahaha :P

went n apply my badges so tat i can hv access to more places in d airport.. pics wit you cheng. so cant put it here. haha .nothin fun to b written now. avday oso work, work n work .. tryin my best to get as much workin time as possible.so tat i cn breakeven .haha . broke ler wei ..
plannin trips to whittier n other places soon ...

starbuck

2008-07-09T16:40:00.000-07:00

overview of our place.It's a kiosk.
My 1st day as cashier usin my own cash!!! hahah , at last!

Tat's me n julie, my learnin coach in starbuck.

Life's here been quite hectic n routanous. Mayb it's bcx i chose to work nite shfit . so it's kinda haywire here.. kena bully at 1st with ppl nt givin me d chance to learn , to make drinks o even to certain extend, ignore me(imagine wei ling nt talkin !!!) lol .gt 1 fella backstab me sumore., bt o well, dun care la!!! so long i hv 1 o 2 close frens here oso ok d... haiz... nt v close with my colleague oso ., kept stealin food from starbuck,ahha.. cx it;s v wasted. avday , dey wil throw lotsa pastry out.. so i ma brin bak n eat lo ~~ hahaha .
appetite grown bigger d.. wana knw wat i ate for d last meal ?it's lemon cake, apple danish , cheese danish , chili's buffalo wings, yoghurt, n did i say few hrs ago ,i ate sandwiches too ?! lol !

working shift

2008-07-03T13:06:00.001-07:00

Wil b working 6 days a week starting from now.. ehhe .. still under training now. hopefully can get my barrista cert soon .. I choose to work d nite shift bcs it offers higher pay n aftaal, i m jst goin bak to d msia time..hahahah .. below is my working schedule for tis week.
friday-10-2am
sat-off
sun-1030am-630 pm
mon-8-6am
tues-10-6am
wed-10-6am
thurs-8-6am

not much working hours but hopefully tippings cn help me .. n afta my trainin , guess i cn extend it kut..ahha

it's 16 hrs diff . so if u al wana knw wen i m free in msia time.. jst add 16 hrs to d time i've mentioned above:) n hopefully u'll b able to track me in msn :)

new hse n new job !

2008-07-02T01:44:00.000-07:00

Shifted to new house d because the previous house is overcrowded.

This is d bathroom .. only prob is d floor has no hole , n thus it kept flooding .. wonder how those ''ang mo'' bathe...haha
D view of my apartment.. staying at d lowest floor.
View of d place outside my door..haha
D street view wen i come out from d apartment.

Started my training in starbuck ytd. It was fun meddling wit those drinks.. but den haiz,need to memorize wei ~~~ cacat..hahah a.. quite tired ler.. duno wat else to blog d.. guess from now on , nothin much i can write d.. will b v bz workin . so tat i cn breakeven.haha . most probably workin in nite shift ...hahah . Bumped into a philipino lady today .., thr r alot of philipino here. n u knw wat? by bein jst an attendant, she has 21ooo of saving , a SUV n stable living in jst 3 yrs time.. m seriously living her own american dream ! haha , but she waited 17 yrs for d visa.. she struggled real hard throughout her life.. am amazed by her story .,wana write more.. but real tired d..continue next time..hehe

btw, real pissed of by sum fucking bitches n assholes .. haha .u gurls faham2 la hu i m tokin about. yen , u better ask from celeste n mei bout tis..ahhahahha

Found!!

2008-06-29T21:35:00.000-07:00

AT LAST!!! found d dream housing of ours d!!!!!! hehehehe... it's an apartment with 2 bed rooms n 1 bathroom.. d bathrooms is real nice.. but d pic tat charles took nt ok .. cx it was done in haste..haha .. but d kitchen pic is ok .. let me show it to u ...

not furnished tho.. so alot of things need to b bought.. bt v good d!!! considerin it's only 825/mth..
which means each of us hv to pay only 206/mth.. hehe.. at 1st, we tot of givin up n pay 375/mth per person for just a small room which hv to b shared by 2 ppl sumore.. den luckily d fella answered our phone at last minute(jst an hour b4 we confirm anader deal!! so close) .. so lucky1!!! else, ihv to pay around rm1000 plus for a small room , without kitchen n avthing sumore!!! waliao!!! thx to charles .. seriously!! guess i was lucky to bumped into him ..

been doin nothin for this whole day ..wana go out but dun wana pay d bus fare..v expensive! haha . so.. stayed at home lo.. den walked around d park for an hour.. so nice!! but 4got to bring my camera.. so cannot take any pic for u .. saw a duck on a small lake.. n cottage in forest( o park accordin to dem ) it's soooo serene n nice.. but ..boring la~~ hhahah ..

will b workin tmr.. hopefuly avthing will b fine:)

alaska50th anniversay and market festivel-28/06

2008-06-29T01:18:00.000-07:00

Went to d downtown today . Thr's celebration of deir's 50th annniversary of statehood. ahha . Thr's ppl singing on d street n lotsa food too..

This is d view of d street.. n den thr's oso an antique cars exhibition whr d cars were parked along d road..heheFord classic.Damn chun !!! hahaha
Pink!!!!Cute rite?? m in love with pink more n more d..haha . wonder wat's this car's model tho. haha .

Meaningful story ~~~
U mst be wondering y I'll say that story is meaningful.. haha. Tat's bcx I m now rubbing d bear!! hopefully it will really brings me good luck!!! haha.. tat's d reason y it's meaningful -It brings luck to me~~~ ahhahahahha:P
Bumped into d Alaska natural heritage store. from d left side,d three coats were made from beaver. The grey fur on d middle is rabbit. v furry n warm.. but eeww.. d brown color at d right side is fox wheres d grey below it is wolf.. dey do sell fur coat here at quite a low price. but pls, dun ask me to buy it for u (esp celeste!! ahhaha) bcx i oppose this kind of activity !! hahahha
Flowers,flowers,flowers!!!! My god !! m so in luv wit it!!! hahaha . Thr r so many flowers along d streets... unlike Malaysia.haha.
Reindeer sausage!!!!! hehehehehe.. one of deir local product. bought it at 4.25usd. d stuff here are pretty expensive , unlike New York and LA. no more souvenir such as nike,adidas, espirit o wateva... Celeste,yen , cannot help u al buy d stuff d, cant even find it here .even if i found, it's too expensive ler!!! D ppl here dun produce much product other den carved knives and minerals.. so , haiz.. i seriously m havin prob with d high living cost here.. waliao.. even a meal in wendy's oso cn cost around 11usd. swt. must save money d!!!hahahah . Else,cannot breakeven d t!! plg teruk, starve lo ~~~ lol.

Me, eating d reindeer!!! wakakakakaka. v nice lo .. d meat is quite tender..hahaha .. We chose a spicy 1.. so it covers sum of d deer's smell d..haha
Was watching her singing while enjoying my reindeer~ lol. Wana knw wat she was singing ?? it's ''stupid cupid~ure a real mean guy ~~~'' total oldies.. wit d ppl around.. it's like I m in d 90s American street..ahha

hehehe.. shopping along d street. window shopping only tho. duno wat's d name of dis animal.. jst simply put it on my head..hahah

Afta tat, we went to d market festival which is jst a street apart from d celebration road ie 4th avenue. Alot of stalls, but mostly sells mineral , carved items, n food.. so boring . alot of thing made in china,russia, etc etc sumore.. swt betul. Saw a bin full of free dog snacks tho. forgotten to take d pic..haha . tink it's d sponsor's idea .. haha
Afta tat , went bak to home n eat noodles.. y I am posting tis pic?? wakkakak. bcx 1st time ever, thr's a guy cooking for me!!! wakkakaak. At 1st, I wana cook 1, but weird la using d pan to cook , so pretty unsure with d precise water measure for d instant noodles. Charles at last ta boleh tahan me d, so he cook lo.. sumore say i dunno how to cook . swt. nvm lo.. I dun mind bein d stupid 1 if thr'll b sumone cook for me..wakkaka.. m still a princess here.haha . u al no nid worry d~~ wont die at here.. cx if anything happened to me, sumone will still cook for me ..haha . so no starving yet!! :P

Tis is d result of d cooking .cacat(using pan ) but edible ,o should i say v nice?? cx it's bt cooked by me!!!haha, so , d best part is stil, me , nt being d chef!! haha .. quite rare lo!!! usually i'll b d cook ,esp at home. ..ahahaha

Thr's an air show in d other area oso ..but ta sempat view it.. nyway , m nt really interested wit it oso ..ahha

Nevertheless, stephy's giving preassure for us to shift again ..haiz.. think we'll take d room at 375usd. it's three times of deir room rate.. but since i was expecting usd400 for it .. so i hope it's stil under my budget n can stil breakeven.. provided d room is stil available..haiz...

Tat's al for now.. wil continue next time. mon start working d.. at starbuck , hope avthing wil b alrite:)

Stupid!

2008-06-28T11:26:00.000-07:00

One thing stupid bout having a laptop here.
You get to surf avwhr , including frenster whr u get 2 view ppl wil all kind of msia scenery n deir dearest frens.. provided wit those melancholy n damn sentimental kind of songs playing in ur ear.. it jst worsen ur home sick illness. swt!

missing all of u.....

ps: i 've created anader blog spot for public view.. www.mylifeinanchorage-alaska.blogpspot.com
but it's d same.. will add sum of my feelings in tis blog wen i hv d feel~ instead of tat .. jst informin u al..haha

27/06/08

2008-06-27T19:33:00.001-07:00

afta so many days bein a jobless fella, decided to save money by nt taking bus today ..ahha .
Walked to d airport for 40 mins.. around d road got plenty of nice flowers .. sumore, charles plucked d pinecone out..it's so beautiful, but i din take d pic.. prefer anader kind of flower thr. it's purple in colour, and i duno wat it's name..ahhaha

as usual, it's pretty boring today , we hv to read d documents n signed it.. but since we get our micros card d, so we r paid for d time in reading ..ahhaha . during our way home, we went n search for housing again . saw lotsa jetplane flying off, heard tat Lakehood is one of d largest lake for d jetplane in d world.. d pics is with you cheng tho. so wil takes sum times to upload. ehhe , meanwhile, will show u all few pics i've taken today . today charles belanja me wendy .. waliao.. damn expensive lo..11 usd wei! mon start working in starbuck d... by den , will get rm13 meal voucher per day , can relieve bit burden . hahaha .

went for a walk tis morning , i m seriously in love wit tis place, esp in d morning .at tat time, no ppl at all, it's jst pure serene n tranquility .. o my !!!! heheheeh

tis d flower tat i like!! hehehe
larger view of it..ehhe
i m cute rite?!!! wakkaka.. luv d mountain... seriously in love!!!! hahaha
d flower again .. found tis on d way to d airport..
charles wit d jetplane.. mine is wit you cheng .. nice place ler.. how i wish i cn fly on d jetplane too..ahah

Alaska diary

2008-06-27T00:40:00.000-07:00

Alaska

24/6/08

-1^st day in alaska.. afta 40 hrs of flight.. my god!!!! So tiring and strenuous!!.. all I can say ,I was pretty lucky throughout d journey .locked my own key in my laptop bag during d changi terminal.D custom in Seatlle nearly break my bag jst to check mmy laptop.swt. luckily, manage to break d lock d. else,pity my bag! Hahha . sumore, me n Charles missed d 1^st flight,pay xtra 500 .swt. hopefully stil can breakeven afta all these events..

-during d nite,managed to meet sum of dem.. dey r quite nice la.. but still kinda stranger , so still need sum time to get d bondJ kinda worried bout d housing tho. Sumore, hv to adapt to d time diff, cant sleep for d whole nite,haiz.hopefully my body can adapt to d changes. Dunwan d history in ns to repeat again ..hahah . so far,ppl r quite nice, but we’ll nvr knwJ hope I m not too noisy nor annoying for dem .hahah

25/6/08

-went n hv a walk with you cheng early in d morning afta d sleepless nite. Hahah . o my !! d weather is sooooo nice n breezy., but it’d too dry. D houses were soo nice, with trees along d pathway , o~totally American. If I hv money , I seriously would consider buying a hse here.haha . went into d park but damn lot of mosquitos !! walao.. hahah .

26/6/08

-Stress,stress,stress!!!!! stil cant find any housing available...ppl kept hinting us to move d..gues sis was right.. sumtimes, it's better to find foreigners than malaysian.. hmm .. worse come to worst, mayb hv to pay quite an expensive rate for d house d.. hmm.. hope i cn stil breakeven lo... else, dad will bising2 d... dad, let ur girl go n fail once a while ler..

-went for a computer kind of orientation.. my god!! damn boring !! sumore it's sleeping time in msia.. cant concentrate at all.. den come home , straight away sleep d.. until now, it's late 12 d.. n i m still damn energetic.. swt.. hahah

-sis kept asking for my num.. but i hvnt settle down .. so i cant do anythin yet. mayb afta a week o two , i'll try n get a phone card, if i get my paid d la.. else, i m broke :) missing home d..
- pics for u all..eheh

housese in anchorage.. all oso full of tress n flowers.. so sweet!!!
went n hv walk at d park in d mornin .. sooo romantic rite??hehe
place where i do my social security.. avday bring d map n walk around ..luckily charles can read map.. bt sumtimes still sesat..ahhaha
can u see d mountain?? heard from stephy rite, in may , it was covered by snow totally ..wow!
dey said mid sept is winter d.. so i hope i get to see d snow falls b4 i go bak..ehhe
anader hse tat i tink is quite ok ..hehe

food in japan airport!!! sooooooooooooo cute!!!! damn expensive wei ~~!1 haiz..
anader food.. waliao.. d only airport tat made me go crazy ..ahhaha
chocolate potato chip!!!! good idea rite?? mei , rmb to sell tis wit me!! hehe .. we specialize in this oso i think cn earn money d..ehhe

despair

2008-05-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

sent 3 essays for markin today .. 2 gt ungraded despite of my hardwork in readin d materials available.. lecturer said sumthin is wrong wit d flow.. guesss i've been beating around d bush all dis while..
7 days left to d xm.. n tis is wat i get for my essays... sighh
despair. frustrated.aimless.
d sky is grey.. n I m feeling blue... haihz

Yet, I m nt givin up!!!! wish me luck gurls!!

thx gurls!!!!

2008-05-03T01:07:00.000-07:00

Seriously , it's a BIG surprise..v touched!!! but walao.. mst hv cost u gurls a bomb for all of it.. swt..
next time dun dare to simply hint hint d... lol.. i wan d pics tho!!!!! wei..celeste, u better send me all of it asap.. hehehe

Honesly,I've eaten 4 cakes tis yr, one from u al, one from xiu , one from coll n one from family.. bt non of it as touched n as surprised as u all.. i guess ua ll mst hv preapred v long for it.. ehhehehe
sighh.. now i need to think hard for d next comin event d.. hehehe
thx !!!luv u all!!!

I m happy for u

2008-04-24T22:11:00.000-07:00

Dear yen ,
你终于醒了...... 虽然离你遇见他之前的你仍然有点距离,可是,至少,你已释怀了....
再多点时间,你应该会更ok吧....
真的替你快乐..... 最重要的是,你不会再找我出气了吧! 哈哈. just kidin!:P
m real glad tat u're feelin good now..
so now, let's all of us enjoy our single life as much as possible!!! hehehe

走宝了!!哈哈.

2008-03-14T09:29:00.000-07:00

girls.. u knw wat???rmb d guy , i'll say his name as ''k'' .. he drives nissan latio leh !! way more expensive den d vios lo... lol.nyway , he told me tat he's tryin to tackle a girl today .. n i was helpin him all d way ...
pretty queer , ppl alwix said tat girl will b tersinggung helpin d guy tat used to tackle her.. but for me, i was v happy tat he has moved on .. n ... my mind kept thinkin of sumone else lo.. part of it is scoldin n kutuk2 him la.. of cux la.. ''cx serious leh , i gv up a latio for a vios!!! ''lol. shuang!! money is my 1st priority lo... n u knw wat??latio was like 20k -40k more expensive den a vios lo!!!! lol.
*money minded me*

Sleepover

2008-02-19T03:17:00.000-08:00

sleep·o·ver /ˈslipˌoʊvər/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[sleep-oh-ver] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
an instance of sleeping over, as at another person's house.

Promised myself to write an entry about sleeping over.. and here i am.. hahaha .
All dis while, U all must hv been wonderin y I am such a freak by sleeping in u gurls' hse all d time.. n most of d time, I'll seriously be sleepin .. instead of talkin wit u all..

N d truth is,I seriously dunno wat to say ..hahahha.. aftaall, my life so far hv been kinda smooth sailing n not much trouble tat i hv encountered. Even if thr is, i 'm jst used wit d format of solvin it on my own..haha.. bt, honestly , wen i m down , I'l b thr wit u all.. U gurls might nt realise tat ..
Bt, wen i m down o watsoever, all i need is jst 2 stay wit u gurls.. n listen to u gurls talkin.. n tat really cheer me up!!It may sound weird.. but my requirement is jst as simple as tat. thus, sumtimes, u all might even misunderstand tat i've nvr open my heart o even share my prob wit u all.. Actually, I did.. but it was in my own way ..

Tat's y i like sleeping over in u gurls' hse.. cx sumtimes, Wen u all r down , o i myself m feeling lonely,i'll jst choose to hv a nite wit u all.. Indeed, most of d time, I'll b sleepin..n u all will b wonderin d reason of me comin here wen all i need is jst a bed,.. d truth is, it's nt just d bed o d room tat i need.. but wen i sleep bside u all, i feel secure.. jst like a baby .. tat thr's sumone I m close to n xtremely fond of ,bside me .. All i need is jst d companion of u all..I m nt a person of words.. so, u cn see tat i rarely express myself through words. cx honestly, words.. cn be manipulated at all times.. but actions will nvr.. And this is how i express myself. so yen, stop bising2 at thr,saying tat i dun understand, o I m emotionless.. o etc etc..I m jst diff from u ... I may seems to b cold.. but trust me, Wen I m hurt, D wound would b 10 times of urs.. Cx instead of releasin it out like how u did, I'll jst keep in d corner of my heart, n let it bleed .. foreva..
If u dun trust me, u cn jst try it once.. keep sumthing tat really hurts u as secret , n not telling anyone bout it..for a mth , a yr, o even foreva.. n u'll see d sealed wound to b leavin a mark in ur corner n nvr fades... it hurts.. more den u cn imagine.

But, tat's me. my life. My way of handling things.Eventually , i'll release it out.. but usually , it will b afta avthing's done ,wen d ending will remain unchanged foreva. Yet, if I were to tell it to anyone, it will b to d one closest to me .. n tat's u gurls.. so.. trust me, U gurls do hv a space in my heart.. in fact, a big space. esp, d kiddo tat hv been wit me since kiddies. lol.

I seriously m in love wit d mornin afta sleepover that we always shared together.. I like d feeling of lookin u all sleepin .. waiting for u all to wake up.. n eat d breakfast 2gether.. i'll feel like we r a family ..n my definition of family ? it's one who I cn really trust, comfortable.. n to rely on foreva.
u may think foreva is a v abstract word. but sumtimes, foreva doesnt mean tat we hv to stick 2gether all d time.. We might nt b seeing each other anymore, might nt even talk to each other in d future.. but wenever we meet up, we'll feel d closeness in us,d sensation of sumone in d corner of ur heart.. n for me, tat's foreva.need nt to b convey by words, nor actions. but it's a ''feeling' , a ''trust'' ..

good ,i crap a lot .. lol.

喜欢,不一定要拥有

2008-02-16T05:23:00.000-08:00

朋友们,我失恋了咯!!
可是,我很快乐.
为什么呢?
嘻嘻.
因为,解脱了.

我喜欢上他了.这是无可置疑的.
所以,我希望他快乐.
与其拖拖拉拉,不如放开他,
让他寻找真正的幸福.

给予他,我真诚的祝福.

聪明的女人

2008-02-09T19:38:00.001-08:00

可曾想过,何谓聪明女人?

是那些在商场上呼风唤雨的女强人吗?
抑或,在政治上与男人平起平坐,各分一杯羹的铁人?
或是,那些总是名列前茅,满腹经论的female walking encyclopedia?
相信这些都是我们总是称羡,以及仰幕的坚强女人吧。
我们也总认为她们很聪明吧.

可是,她们真的是聪明的人吗?
我觉得,恰恰相反.

反之,我说啊...世上最聪明的女人，
是思想简单的女人.
为什么呢?

因为啊....
她们不会有烦恼啊!
为什么呢?

因为,她们,深晓,
眼泪的威力.
试问,有哪位男人对着一个泪汪汪女人能不为之动容呢?
当她们有问题时,她们根本无须动脑筋,
只需一把鼻涕,一把眼泪,
以及一双''电人无须本''的明眸.
相信我吧,很快,问题就会解决啦!

而,那些,世俗公认的聪明女人呢？
对不起咯,既然她们那么聪明,
那么坚强,也从不掉眼泪,
人们通常会认为她们无须帮忙,
因为她们''聪明''啊!
解决问题是她们的本性呀!

假设,这两种女人同时向你求救，
你会救谁呢？

本能性的你,应该,会是帮那简单的她吧.
因为,''她比坚强的你更需要我''.

所以啊,我说啊...简单的女人最幸福,
也是最聪明的咯!!

而,那些,表面风光,却总是被逼独撑一切的女人呢？
她们...应该是最傻的吧!
不过,若她们真的哭了,
那怕只是低吟的抽泣,
事情应该是很严重的吧!

不过,结论是,聪明的女人绝对是懂得利用眼泪，思想简单的她们！

只可惜,
我不会哭，
所以啊，我不是简单的女生.
哎，可喜抑或可悲呢？

Prom

2008-02-03T01:28:00.000-08:00

Yeah.i m bak from d prom d. Cinderella has returned from her dreamy world. haha.
It was v lame tho.Lame perfomance,terrible food , wit no one tat i m pretty close to mingle with . hahah . but i got to knw a girl . she's his fren's ex.thus, throughout d nite, I was with her all d way, instead of bein with him . But ,he was v gentleman,as usual. jst tat , it was kinda ackward between me n him , he seems to b v afraid of me. din even touch me durin d photo session .sigh I tink tat's d endin kut.hahaha
Yet, wen he sent me home, sumthin peculiar happened. I felt asleep on his car. n he jst kept lettin me bein asleep in his car even tho he has reached celeste's hse.woke up eventually , n den ,d funny thing is, afta i reached home, he called n came bak again , jst to pass me a cd tat he can actually give me another day .was kinda touched.hahah. but, til den , he nvr msg nor on9 d...
is he avoidin me??
Confused , xtremely confused. Is he treatin me d way he was on tat nite due to courteasy o it's straight from his heart? Hope it's d latter answer.but,we'll nvr knw.
sigh. cant blive I'll fall into d trap of love.

Cinderella-to-be

2008-01-31T18:52:00.000-08:00

yup! n tat's me!! ahah *perasan*
kinda nervous now. it's 8 hours to go for d prom . n here i am, wit butterflies in my stomach , bumblebees in my head n starry starry stars around me. gosh ! i m soooooo nervous!!! it's like a total make over for me.
at last, i m growin up!! i m bcomin a lady !!a girl.. a vain vain girl. lol.
hope i wont get embarassed thr. kinda worry tat i'll b tripped down on my heels, o even my dress got slashed o dropped down in a sudden . hahahaah . worst thing of al,if he ever sees me embarassin myself thr.gosh!! i'll commit suicide den !! hahaha .
d best part of al ?? i m not d only one tat's havin tis nervous andrenaline with me!!! ahhahaha . cant blive my darlings all can sense my nervousness n share wit me as well!! hahahahha . v touched . serious!! luv ya all!! muackz.
wish me luck gurl!! haha

白开水的爱情

2008-01-31T18:44:00.000-08:00

白开水,真的是那么的淡然无味吗?

往往,我们都向往各类不同口味的饮品,
寻寻觅觅,就是想找到最适合我们的口味的...
殊不知,最适合我们的,
永远是那淡淡清香的白开水.

可是,水永远只是默默的在我们的身边,
无声无息地守候着我们.

于是,我们开始变了,
开始怀疑自己根本不喜欢它.
不珍惜它了.

可乐,百事,开始进入我们的世界,
像一阵暴风雨,
让我们着了魔似的,
把那干淳的水给忘了.

可是,久了,喝腻了,
越喝,越累,越无精打采,
慌了.难道,错了?

原来,我们早已爱上那淡淡的清甜,
虽简单,无味 ,却无法离开的,
白开水.

再度喝上那淡然无味的水,
竟然发现它原来是那么的美味,
那么的自然与清新.

爱情,不也一样吗?
寻寻觅觅,寻找的,
就是那一刹那的快感,
瞬间的快活.
正如,我们寻找那各类的饮品一样.

可是,久了,
累了,
开始怀疑自己了.
到底,寻找着的,是什么?
快感...是幸福的等号吗?抑或,恶魔的化生?

其实,我们真正需要的,
也许,只是那淡淡的,
虽无波浪,却永远有着淡淡温馨的,
白开水爱情.

白开水,虽无味,却是不可或缺的,
可是,它也会是经过最多风雨与考验的爱情.
在这充满诱惑的世界里,
它,显得那么乏味,
却也是那么地难能可贵.

始发觉,简单也是一种幸福.

朋友说, 50 + 50 ,不就100 了吗?
为何还要怀疑呢?

我,无言以对.
百开水,永远都不能满足一切.

只可惜,我们都是完美主义者.

A fren.. an old old fren..

2008-01-15T04:31:00.000-08:00

She's a girl. A girl that has been my classmate for 3 years.. A girl ,that I would like to brin her into our circle. A girl, that we've hurted her sum times ago...
Has she forgive us? o, she has already forgotten us?was reading her blog .. when I've realised that she rarely o perhaps, never really mention any of us in her blog.. nor has she tried to keep in touch with us..
Has she forgotten us? O she's just busy ?
I used to feel sorry for her. All this while, I've been tryin to help her. Yet, she never really approach me.That's disspointin . n It hurts. Even durin d incident itself, she din even tell me a single thing about it. IS it true that friendship is just a lie?
If it were so,den I wish I'll live foreva in this white lie.
I guess, I m givin up on her....

BZ....

2008-01-07T03:41:00.000-08:00

Yup!! I'll b xtremely bz sooon... with xm approachin ... not just xm.. but xm-s~~~~ lol.. so i'll b expectin assesment for av week.. sigh... nerd coll..
Besides, I 'll b workin soon!!!! so rite now, my life would b damn packed wit study n work .. lol.. avday from 9-6.... includin sat n sun .. hope i can cope wit it tho..haha
Wonder y i enjoy torturing myself.. guess i just need to do sumthin to make me feel alive.. tat i can still live on my own , do wateva I would like to do .. n b bz.. a serene n meaningless life is just not my cup of tea.. haha
Just a prior notice for all my darlings~~ hehehe .. but o well,I'll still b thr for u all !! esp for yumcha session !! dun worry!! I'll honour my promise!! hehehe
Dun miss me so much yah!! Tho I knw u all will~!!:P
wakakakakkaka

It's just a game.

2007-12-16T04:02:00.000-08:00

Well, yeah , He proposed to me to b his gf again. This time, I chose to throw lemon tho. wakakkakkaka. Anyway ,i m not convinced tat he really likes me .I myself am not sure whether I like him o not too.. ahhaha
At d moment he told me tat he likes me,instead of burstin with joy of love, I felt only thrill of triumph. Guess I am really nt into him as much as I tot I would..But I do hv ''hao gan '' towards him .. Yet,both of us r well aware tat tis's jst a game. We wont really ended up spendin whole life with each other. O so I tink.haha
I tink he's only havin crush on me. In fact, I felt kinda preassured as I've to keep him feelin excited all d time bein around me . Aftaall, I m not really tat playful n fun as he tinks I am .Furthermore, He is used with havin so many relationship , thus, it's nvr a prob for him to get a new one..
Guess I am feelin insecure.Kinda afraid tat I'll really fall for him n ended up with him brushin me off.Wanted to brush him off now.. wakkakaka .jst bcox i dun wana b d one to b dumped.Yet, dun wana hv d resentment of stoppin avthin even b4 it started.
O well, I'll jst confess d truth to him tat I'm not really into him.. heheh
Kinda confused now.Am i seriously not likin him o I m just afraid tat I've like him ?

When fire meets ice

2007-12-07T17:47:00.000-08:00

Fire is full of passion whereas ice is full of defence and coldness.So, what happens when fire meets ice? Will d fire melts ice , or the ice freezes fire?
The ice is starting to melt now...however, it is still afraid that fire will be put off even before the ice is being melted completely..

New Journey

2007-12-01T15:08:00.000-08:00

Will be indulging into a whole new journey soon .. is it a good thing or a bad thing ? It's yet to be confirmed. But I am glad that at least I've taken the 1st step out. Wish me all d best !

War

2007-11-02T20:09:00.000-07:00

I hate this.My dad kept emphasizing that I'm being cheated by them .I am well aware of this fact, but it's just for the sake of experience gaining.I know I'll be losing money instead of earning the so-called ''reward'' . But at least I m satisfied that i m doing what I m interested in .
He is a paranoid person . He kept thinking that I can never balance both my study and work well. O well, if he really thinks so , den he should just let me follow him to work .At least, I'll be foreva protected under his umbrella. But NO! he didn't want me to even put a single footprint in d business world. Hence, I've decided to be rebellious. O well, who cares I'm losing money , being cheated by people, so long I am learning what I wanted to learn.
But , hell no . When i told him about this, He kept scolding me , n yet when I told him that I wanted to let their designer do the job (pay oso la) , He asked me to pass it to his designer . Now that I let his designer does the job , he kept telling me how much it cost and it's not worth it for me to do so much of donkey job for them , that I'm being cheated, n the list goes on . When I told him I'll jst let them do it , he'll said I'll stil be cheated by them . Den wat am I to do ?!! Stay at home, study well, and foreva be his dearest doll ?
I am never a doll, and will never be .

I M SEXY?!! DAMN!!

2007-10-07T05:42:00.000-07:00

lol. bcomin more n more rude wit my words nowaday .haha
o well, injured my ears while skating last week n i din go to d clinic to stich it . hence, it seems like it's going to leave a scar thr. o well, work well as a tattoo though!!! haha. My frens were v worried about my injury esp a new acquitance in my coll. seems like she cares alot bout me . m very happy bout tat.She's a v nice girl n i am v lucky to meet her. It seems like not avone in my coll is tat bad aftaall. o well, thr r indeed ppl who backstab , kiasu n etc.. but i guess d benefit of closin my heart b4 i get to know avone well is a good way to get true frens as i get to observe well wat ppl r tinkin b4 i start to treat dem well. Of course, d cons is ppl might tink tat i m fakin o even not bein sincere wit dem . but o well, past experience has taught me not to trust sumone easily, so if dey cant get along wit it, well, no harm! aftaal, i know i've alreadi got myself a bunch of girl frens tat wil alwix b thr for me. haha .
bcox of tat wound, i wouldnt dare to wear spec to coll.it seems like alot of dem think tat i looked diff wen i am with n without spec. some even said tat i looked sexy!! lol. d most bizarre thing is, even li mei n hui yen oso think d same! DAMN! DUDE,UR EYES GOT PROB LA! TIME TO HV AN EYE CHECK UP!ahha
kiddin kiddin . dun get offence yah!! o well, tat's al for 2day .. jst to tell u all tat I M SEXY!! lol *as if*
p/s: i tink i myself is d one tat need to get a medical check up . gettin crazy n crazier d nowaday . mayb it's due to my xm stress .ahah

Famine 30

2007-09-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

IT WAS SUPERB!!! gonna join it again next year!! wakakaka.
Was v hungry at d first 10 hrs,but after that felt nothing d.. the event started wit us registerin into diff groups, n den sum ice breakin game. D crowd was overwhelmed!! Jst imagine 5000++ ppl playin wave in d stadium!!!! not torturing at all. Afta that, we play sum famine challenge games in regards of those children( tis year's theme is on d child rights) Quite boring though .
N den at nite, thr's a charity concert.Listened to nicholar teo, fish leong, francesca bianca,sarina, yang wei han n more.4 lucky participants get to play games 2gether wit dem sumore!! SO LUCKY!!! haha. Too bad I was sitting way up d hall. haha.
Afta d concert , we went to star gazin(wit no star though) n slept on d balcony.. haha. PAIN LER MY BACK BONE AFTA TAT!! din really sleep well though.. It was too cold d n d floor is hard..*pampered me*! ahha.
2nd day started wit yoga n sum talk on china n eithopia kids.. pity dem!! look so skinny!! but i m still in d opinion tat we should help our country ppl 1st cx there r plenty of dem tat r not in a v good condition oso (especially east malaysia ppl)
But den hor,not all came with d intention of xperiencing famine n doing charity, sum came here jst to hang wit their partners o sum to seduce d other sex!! haha. well,there were 2 gurls in my group tat kept flirting with d so-called hansem fella in my group. hahah , v funny watching dem lo!! thr's one who's ukm graduate sumore. quite geram wit tat girl ,wen i told her i m nw studyin in coll, she was like throwing those kind of sarcastic look as if she is v smart by bein in ukm.DUH!! try n speak english wit me la if u dare!! *evil me* but o well, luckily she was so busy flirting wit guy tat i dun really talk much wit her.. ahahah.well, din really talk much wit d ppl thr laa. hhahha. luckily li mei was thr wit me, if nt,i'll b bored till death!! haha .
For me, it's jst fun being in such a big event ,n doing charity of course!anyway, i'll b joinin tat again next year!!! btw, mayb bcx of d video of famine ppl o d xperience, it seems like my appetite had bcome smaller d.. am so happy for it!! haha

Missin u ...

2007-08-17T08:00:00.000-07:00

Missin all of my frens in a sudden.. bcomin more n more sentimental d.. ahhaha ..
stress wit mock .. wit ppl kept askin bout my study , askin me how to study .. come on!! gettin good result in spm doesnt mean tat i'll b good all d time!!
not sure if i've choose d rite course,afta all,my intention is not to work in tat field wurt, den mayb i should pick sumthin easier n get started.. haha .. tis course is good.. but i need to b a nerd to score well, if i choose to b a nerd ,den i'll miss lot on my surroundin (which is essential for my workin life esp business) , but if i din get 2nd class o higher,my cert would b equal to nothin d...
feel like workin now.. wana stop studyin d.. but i know i cant.. n i'll regret it for sure... wana go for those summer job , but dunno i'll miss any scholarship opportunity by doin tat o not..sighh
i guess i m scared of guys fallin in love wit me.. cox i know for sure i'll hv no time for tat .. but i might choose to go out wit him bcox of sympathy n curiosusity .tat's bad n unfair for d guy rite??quite close with a guy recently.. tat's bcx i know he got gf d... tat's y i dare to get close wit him.. i m closin my heart.. it's not tat easy for me to trust any new frens anymore.. but he's d only one hu make me feel ok ... guess it's bcx he's bein frank wit me.. n he got gf.. if by any moment he break up wit his gf, guess tat's d moment our frenship will turn sour? cx i dunwan stay near any guy tat doesnt hv gf.. weird rite?? hahahahahah
tink alot recently.. dunno y .. hard to concentrate.. tink more n more bout my future .. bout avthin .. tend to make choice, instead of lettin d fate to lead me to whr i should b .. hahaha ..
miss my old frens damn lot!! wana meet dem avday like how we used to b.. but i cant!! ought to study for my mock!! hard to meet up n talk like how we used to b.. topic oso changed d.. last time it's all about d idols n nice stuff n stupid n funny stuf.. but now, it's all bout sorrow..sighh..talked to an old fren of mine today , den only realised how much i've missed .. by busy doin only MY stuff day afta day .. den wen i appologize 4 not callin, she said she understand tat i m bz.. make me feel more guilty !! sighh...

I WANA GO BACK TO MY FORMER SCHOOL LIFE!!!

xm ?? in such a short period?!

2007-08-03T19:27:00.000-07:00

yeah .. tat's true.. I'll b havin my as lvl xm soon in oct n d mock's in aug. I've studied only 2 mths thr n yet d lecturers hv finished all d syllabus n without me noticing it , it's alreadi d revision mth .sigh.. quite tiring .. yet i hope it's worthwhile.. haha .

Back From NS

2007-06-16T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hurray!!! I'm back!! This has been one of d greatest experience in my life. I've tried rakit,kayak,shooting , flyin fox n etc etc.. It's more of a holiday den military training there.. the coaches were very nice n caring . I guess that's d reason ppl alwix said tat kem miri is the best throughout d nation . We had 6 meals per day with abundant food n desert until d ppl there alwix throw a lot of d food into d dustbin which is a laidback in tis programme cox i hate redundant wastages!! Imagine a dustbin full of rice,chicken , fish, vegeatables n fruits!!! gosh , they should really b punished.. we r also allowed to go out for shopping on every sunday after our religion service.. hehhehe ..n that's where our money goes.. some even spent up to 1k plus at there.. tat's a big sum!!! n mostly of it is spent on snacks withough any doubts..wakakak.. we were having parties at almost every weekend nites.. ehhehehe.. tat's how d fats are formed in us.. lol. talking bout snacks, we've got muffin,butter cake,kuih bahulu, popiah curry,egg,tuna), bread (chocolate,kaya,butter,chocolate cream,sausage,sugar coated,cream,n more) for our tea time n squids,prawns,chicken (in big portion),fish (whole of it) ,n etc for our main meals..n bread,egg accompanied by bihun/noodle/nasi lemak/nasi goreng for our breakfast!! lol.Furthermore,I've tried plenty of d local delicacies thr too (mee golok,mee kuching,sarawak laksa,kueh chap,ding pian hu,kuih melanau,sarang semut n etc) lol. luckily i havent gain any weight afta tat mayb bcox i kept exercising in av evening durin my stay thr..
they even brought us to d tourism attraction places durin our khidmat komuniti . Went to d taman awam,balai polis,rumah panjang,bomba, pbsm n dialysis centre. got one group of student get to go to d lambir national park!!! how lucky they are!! I was v lucky as i get to go to sibu for a competition representin miri .. n seems like d sibu camp is oso a heaven for d students there too.. but theirs schedule r more hectic.. pity them!! haha .
Besides all tat, i get to xperience d celebration of gawai in my fren's rumah pjg too!!! I've wore d Iban clothes n I've drank tuak too!! ehhe ..Tuak is indeed v strong n choking but at d same time,it's refreshin .. but i am not used with d environment there though .. quite unhygenic as compared to d camp n of course, my own home sweet home!! hehe .
It's like a pit stop for me.With no stress, no brainwork required, it's just serene n peaceful thr.. Avday ,i'll just hv to wake up n eat n do some easy work out.. den hang out wit frens, play basketball.. talk watever i wan , do watever i wan .. n SLEEP n EAT watever I wan .. lol.I MISS D LIFE THR!!!!
Now that i am back .. i am seriously troubled by few questions regarding my studies..I din apply for d JPA cx i dun wana be bonded by dem ... but i felt quite un worth it when i've seen ppl whose result is worse den me get to go to oversea while me still being stuck in here... tot of applyin for other scholarship .. but i've obtained a full scholarship for my A lvl studies.. sigh.... dunno i should apply for other scholarship o not for now... I am now joining d march/april intake student in my coll, thus, ought to work v hard to catch up watever tat I've missed.. quite tension ler..but tink avthin will b fine soon.. just tat it's v hard to beat d resentment in me of not being able to go to oversea with d result of mine( as if d result is for display only .. sigh )
will upload sum pics if possible, still findin for d cable.. lol. tat's all for now.. wei ling ,signing off.

ATC!! HERE I COME!!!

2007-01-22T23:20:00.000-08:00

ATTACK!!! heheh.. attacking A lvl now. wakakka. For those who dunno wat's ATC , ATC stands for Advance Tertiary Coll .It's a prestigious law coll in KL. It's course fees is cheaper compared to other colleges too, guess mayb it's bcox they can only attracts law students.
Nevertherless, I'll be going for my ns in march, thus i'll be following the june/july intake n learn everthing again after my return from ns. d 1st day was scary though. D new frens tat I've met had read the law books xcept me.. sigh . feel like i am very stupid at there.. quite stressful oso, cox everyone's been buyin books xcept me, n not only they r very enthusiatic with law,they love history too!!!!!!! sigh. For me, i just wan to study law, but i dun think i'll bcome a lawyer.wakakak.mayb a solicitor is ok , but not a barrister(those who go to court)however,I might change my mind.hehe. Anyway,majority of them r from science stream too!! hehe.
I'll be takin law, business studies and account.Though i dun really hope for tat , but sumhow i've made myself d centre of attention in d class.Compared to d ppl there, i am quite outspoken , thus i'll ask nonsense questions at there o even answer nonsense stuff oso. lol. quite embarassin though. Furthermore, we had a debate today n d topic is quite interestin .it's about a man who published n distributed booklets containin prostitutes' add n names.Nevertheless, there's no such law tat prohibits such publication. Thus , is this man consider as commitin crime?I was one of d prosecuter there, n i used d informal way of debatin where i asked ppl whether they will call d girls in booklet if they r men in need to prove tat tis is an advertisement n it does corrupt ppl's mind n i even admit tat i will do so if i were a man bcox the guys there answered no.so embarassin. ceh ceh!!as if they really wont. geram geram . lol
aniwae, i get scolded by d librarian today.sad.She kept on talking to ppl during her work. Thus,I interrupted her talk dis mornin to return my book n get her to open anader cabinet of book (which she alredi showed d sour face). n den,during d afternoon,when I was havin class n teacher gave me only 5 mins to get all d resources done,i interrupted her again to photocopy the papers. n den she kept on scoldin me , sayin tat i should not interrupt ppl wen ppl's talkin. Nevertheless, the worst thing is... STUPIDLY, i chose to appologise to her n kept on sayin sorry even though i am not wrong.( all i was thinkin at tat moment was to get the things done n rush 2 d class to start d debate)sigh.Guess i am too polite/sweet/nice to be a lawyer. thus, dun think i suit this field.. yet.But, dun worry! sumhow, i'll manage it well!! afterall.. I am INVINCIBLE!! wakakakkakaka .. positive thinker always survived!! hehe.

OH MY GOD!!

2006-12-14T04:17:00.000-08:00

Handphone stolen. *sigh*

anyone going to Africa?

2006-10-24T06:13:00.001-07:00

hm.. any idea on any organization in malaysia tat r finding volunteers in assisting humanity development? lol.This is a great vid indeed .But my 1st impression on it is not a good one.
honestly, i was terrified by the truth portrayed in this vid. I guess i am just as ignorant as other ppl by thinking tat africa is a land of poverty where ppl r alwix unhappy /struggling for their survival. in fact, i guess wat they need most is not the sympathetic eyes from others but just the equal chance to live like others.
They may be poor financially o even famime, but they r happy deep within their heart. They enjoy their life to the max even when the environment doesn't allow them to do so..
Besides tat, it does makes me wonder.. y r they still so poor even though trillions n trillion dollars r flowing into the continents annually? any idea?
heard from them tat it's bcox their economy is blocked by certain countries.. hmm.. i wonder if our country is one of them...
but if u really hv a clear look on africa, there r certain countries tat r quite well-developed despite of our usual perceptions towards them, so i guess it's time to change our view on them? they did remind me of those physically disable ppl. do they need our sympathise? no!! never!! they even cringe at it. all they want is just the equal chance to survive .. it may seems like a minor request which could be easily fullfiled but did we really do according to their wish? can u actually not putting a sympathatic eyes on them n treat them like normal? hmm.. try n be in their shoes, would u prefer getting a post due to the sympathetic eyes of others o u prefer getting it on ur own ability? i'll choose the latter.thus,pls wipe away the sympathetic face of urs, tat's not wat they need from u .. in fact, it will only show how silly n not understanding u r as a person.
besides tat,is it true tat they r the only one tat need our help? look carefully at our surrounding n u will realise tat they r not the only one tat need our help In fact, there r a lot of ppl in our country tat need our help.. not only financially, but mentally n spiritually .Try n hv a close look at ppl around u .. hv u realise tat only few ppl tat hv the true,happy smile like the africans? o should i say, one in a million?o mayb even worse, we r the one tat need to be rescued?
i did surf around the net in order to find for any ngo sites tat need volunteers.. though i know i may not stick with it permanently ( cox i am alwix busy with nonsense stuff/ shy/ dunno wat to do with it) but i guess i'll be glad tat i did try to help, leaving no regrets in my life. but it seems like the ngo need helps too.. in the term of FINANCIAL instead of volunteers.. rofl. yeah.. tat's the reality of life. furthermore, i guess i really cant do much other than bcome kids' tutor .. since i am still a student n am financially dependant.. lol. hm.. o mayb i'll just go to cambodia n teach the kids mandarin ( my chinese paper did advertise this type of voluntary job) but my mandarin is only at spm level.. n furthermore i am terrible in the proper pronounciation of it.. wakkaka.
o well, i'll just try n surf more for the infos..hehe.all the best wei ling !!

Friendship Crisis

2006-10-09T01:59:00.000-07:00

I'm glad it's over. Though the ending is not a good one, but at least i've learned sumthing from it.I'm glad tat i chose for confrontation instead of hiding my true feeling. I know i have lots of frens,n i know for sure they would help me whenever i am in trouble. but it seems like i am just being greedy by asking for only one best fren , which turned out to be a bad one for me. Nevertheless, i am glad tat there r frens tat chose to be by my side . Honestly ,I'm glad tat this conflict happens as it let me know the trueself of everyone.If i were to choose , i would say tat i'd rather hv few close frens tat will share my sorrow than to hv lots n lots of frens tat will share only my happiness. Btw, there's sumthing tat i would like to say to this fren of mine n i myself:

For my fren:
Honestly, i pity u . This is not a sarcastic remark but it is sumthing tat come from the bottom of my heart.I feel sorry for u . I had lost only an unfaithful fren but u had just lose urself a true fren. Sumhow, u chose to torture urself by living in a world full of hatred n sorrow.I pray tat u'll actually realize the mistake u've made in the future so tat ur fren/ bf /watever it is will not suffer like how i was.Besides tat , I would like to thank u for teaching me such a great lesson. U let me realize tat it's of no use cheating myself tat this frenship will actually survive till the end of our lives n i've learned not to trust/depend so much on sumone, n nvr ever think so positive on ppl( cox i tot u will learn to hv ur own stand after few lectures n bla bla bla by me.. rofl)Honestly, i'd rather be alone than to hv frens tat nvr know how to support/ understand /trust me.

For myself:
Gosh! Dear Wei Ling, u ought to learn to be more selfish!!!! lol. Must learn to believe in ur own instinct. Never ever give it a chance when u know tat it's not going to work from the beginning. n dun analyse ppl so much.It will only hurt u more. lol.Afterall, the fact is always cruel, thus being blur is blissful at times.hm.. n dun trust ppl so much!!Never pamper ur fren!!N stop being so stupid by actually asking for ppl to comfort the fren tat had just hurt u . U must never ever think tat u're Mother Theressa!!lol. btw,i hope u can open back ur heart as soon as possible.learn to be an optimist just like u always do!! kambayte!! :)
(lol.. givin advice to myself pulak.. )

Luckily she is not going to read this blog.. i'll just keep this as a reminder for myself .. Wei Ling signing off.

Love n Marriage

2006-08-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

NEVER EVER MIXED IT 2GETHER!! lol. i repeat, never mix love n marriage together o the outcome would be disastrous. lol. worry not. this is not a lovey dovey post. but it's more to the education side.
Back to the topic.i am sure lots n lots of u would think tat marriage is based on love. pls.. reconsider ur tot. b4 tat , let's hv a look on wat's love n wat's marriage. honestly, u may agree o disagree this definiton .it's ok with me. Lots of them would said love is undescribable.. sumhow, it's true.but for me, love in ''the youngster'' eyes is more to crush , o the ''chemistry between 2 person'' , ''the unique feeling of ''u're the one'' '' etc etc. n they think tat's true love( haha, funny ) . in the other hand, marriage is a life-long bond which requires tolerance n the ''click'' in attitudes.

So, wat's wrong having a marriage based on love? well, it wouldn't be if ppl r rationale enough to not use tat excuse'' love is blind''. lol .let's hv an example here: u love A from the 1st sight( o so u think u are) . n when u get along with her/him, u still ''think'' u love her/him even though u argued a lot with her/him, bear a lot with her/his temper, her/his jealousy etc etc. n u would tell ppl tat tat's her/his uniqueness ( haha) .thus, u decided to hv a bond with her/him, n u married her/him. wakaka. happy endin? o is it? hehe. the prob arised . Not only u couldn't bear with her/his tempers ,ur family wouldn't too!! n she/he started complained how ur siblings manipulating u , ur parents having bias on her/him n the list goes on( usually girls complained tat. lol).. wakakaka. n now u tot of divorcing her/him..n u started avoiding her/him, tried to escape from these prob( being the middle person is terrible, moreover for years!!) ahha. so is it a happy ending afterall? Now u're trapped in the cycle of miserable.. together with ur ''true love life partner'' .both of u ARE in the well of miserable n nothing can help much after all unless both of u change ur attitude.nevertheless, it's true love!!just tat it's not the true mariage. tat's y a lot of them who hv marriage based on love chose to hv affair o end up divorced with the reason ''losing feeling towards each other''/ ''the chemistry is not working anymore'' o fights.

now, let's differentiate love n marriage. Love is more to feelings ( i wouldn't deny tat ) n personal.. it is simple.thus, it involved only 2 persons. but marriage is not. it involved not just 2 persons but 2 families.When u r getting married , u dun just think bout urself ,pls consider ur family too, xpecially ur parents. r u sure ur true love will take care of ur parents? r u sure she/he will likes ur family just the way she likes u? Love can be about arguments.. it's interesting having sumone to argue at times.. but not forever!!! n as i said, marriage is lifelong, so pls dun take the risk saying she/he will change her/his attitude after marriage. afterall, waiting a person to change attitude in a glimpse is like waiting the sun to rise from west.though, i wouldn't deny the possibility of miracles to happens . but it takes times.. at least more than 10 years. haha.

so how to choose love partner n marriage partner? hard question. 1st of all, keep ur rationality ( o well, u may lose some during the process to indulge completely on the blissful moment but pls keep the rationality on when u're taking the lifelong decision) . 2nd, love is more on the excitement of life. u feel excited o happy whenever u see her/him . o well, tat's love!! but if it is a marriage partner, u'll feel comfortable whenever u're around him/her.u'll feel secure n peaceful ..n etc etc.. excitement? at times.. ( afterall, u may create it if u wan .. ) it's a life long romance .. thus , things tat touch ur heart wouldn't be those presents o sweet talks o stuff but it's the way she/he treats u . if u think the attitude is right, then congrats!! u've found the one! Never ever bear with serious attitude flaws.. if u really thinks she/he will change .. then let her/him change her/his attitude b4 marriage .. not after marriage!!bcox of the lifelong romance, many ppl couldn't stand it as it is boring compared to the passionate love relationship .. but bear in mind tat even drama oso couldn't hv romance in each episode of it ... so stop dreaming tat ur life should be better than tat. .lol.

opps.. lecture too much d. counsellor wei ling signing off. :P

Am I stupid?lol.

2006-07-02T02:16:00.000-07:00

SPM's just around the corner n i am not fully prepared .. lol. ok .. let's go straight to the point.. i am now studying in science stream.. n i am going to study law after this( if i hv enough $$) but it seems like jpa is not going to give scholarship to those who wish to pursue law but din take economonics n history in SPM.. i was not aware bout this fact though ... so unless i chose for anader course such as medicine /biotech .. i think i'll hv to wave bye bye to jpa schoalrship:P
but after i've finish my law( if possible) i am going to enter business/business consulting field instead.. which i think most probably i'll hv to go 4 MBA after my degree( hm.. most probably after i've gain some working experience)
haha.. many of them wouldn't understand this decision ..so, am i stupid? lol.
worst come to worst.. if i couldn't get any scholarship .. i'll hv to go to form 6.. n i'll take art stream without hesitation.. lol. but i think it would be quite a hassle cox i know the government wont allow me to change stream easily.. furthermore , a lot of them would call me silly/ stupid for choosing art stream with the result of mine.. for the majority, i look like i am indecisive( for changing my course all the time). but this is my plan, believe it o not.. rite now, i'll just hv to braved myself in facing their critism in the future.. lol. even my dad find it's quite hard to fathom my thoughts.. haha.. nevertheless , being a supportive dad as he always is, he ''tried '' not to steer my future.. lol.. it's funny watching him struggling with his thought.. :P

i've organized a fun experiment competition in my school recently.. not to say organized.. just set a date n time n inform them.. lol.. but i cant even do it well..
i tot there were only 2 chemistry teachers in my school( which turn out to be 3) thus, i informed only 2 .. but i did inform all the class monitor bout this.. n in the competition , a friend of mine couldn't turn up in the competition n anader group invited the teachers to look at their work again on mon( which my teachers has agreed to look at it).. n i've asked the teacher to be the judge again on this wed for the class which the teacher insisted to choose her own team ( tat class has sent a team, but the teacher is not satisfied bcox she wasn't notified)n i know i'll be blamed soon by my teachers for asking them to stay back for so many days( which i've just asked to stay back on wed only.. i know they'll credit the mon invitation into my acc too)n now my fren who's kicked out bcox of not turning up in the competition wants a rematch (but her exp has been used by anader team) .. n she's blaming me for this ... i know she has notified me bout her absense, but since the date has been set, it's normal for me to persuade her to tried her best to appear.. it wont be a prob for me to let her enter the competition again(since we r going to hv anader match on wed) but the fact tat her exp has been used by anader team is indeed a disadvantage for her(according to my comprehension, tat exp was first found by the other team instead of her) i'll be scold by her soon ( i know!)
seems like it's not working well at all.. izzit my fault? i hv no idea. i was notified tat there r only 2 chem teachers in school.. they should've informed me earlier tat there r 3 instead.. n now tat the class has sent a representative.. i wonder if tat teacher will still insist on her own chosen team(which i dunno who). should've ask the class one by one whose their teachers .. but i did ask one by one who's their representative.. OMG!! sounds complicated ,rite?? good.. bcox it is indeed complicated.. let's put the synopsis in point form:
1. teachers going to be judges for 3 times due to their anader promise towards a girl without informing me. n anader times is bcox of me specifically conduct for the pity class( hehe, mayb it's my mistake for not checking properly how many chem teachers in my school.. but i wasnt' notified bout her at all until wed when everything's done n the match is on fri(tat's y i chose to carry on without informing her bcox her class has sent a team)
2.my fren going to kill me for this . but think it would be a minor prob la cox i know she will listen to my explanation(o so, i hope)
3.i am going to blame mysself foreva for being such a terrible organizer esp when it's sumthing simple like this

i am really having a confidence crisis rite now.. i tot i am going to be a smart leader in times.. but it seems like i cant even accomplish a simple job like tat .. gosh!!pengsan la...

I have a niece!!

2006-06-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

My sis in law has just gave birth to a baby two days ago..3.32 kg, n she's a girl!! lol.Seems like i am not the youngest in the house anymore .. haha.she looks pinkish .. she has her mom's eyes which is big n round.. n nose too... there r even relatives tat said tat she looks like me.. haha.. same oval face n got my mouth shape too. . she's adorable!! cant help touching her face n hug her whenever i see her.. haha .. n feel like kissing her too.. too bad my mom forbid us to do so (not only me, but my siblings too.. haha)as her skin is still kinda sensitive .. o well, gotta wait till she's 1 month old only can kiss her.. too bad.. she's sooo soft .. n fragile ,thus i was kinda worried whenever i hug her.. eheh. n her hand n legs r not even half as big as mine.. whenever i hug her, i feel like hugging an ultrasoft teddy bear.. ahah .. rite now, i'll put on music whenever she's around me.. hope those music can really stimulates her brain for a better development.. nevertheless, i'll be happy so long she can keep on being healty n happy.. mayb one day , u all should really try n hv a look at babies.. they r like angels from heaven.. no matter how tired o how sad u r , u'll just hv to hv a look at them n all ur sorrows will be gone.. the moment they smile at u, u'll feel like nothing is impossible in this world..n all these hardwork is worthwhile..
o well, better sign off now n take a look at ''my'' precious.. rofl:P

Anime Craze

2006-06-01T22:51:00.000-07:00

xm's over n my holiday has begun.. o well.. got back few papers adi n the outcome is not tat satisfying .nevertheless,i hv no regret o hold back much bad feeling as i hv really tried my best in it.i am still thinking bout the solution for this crisis though.. ahha. hope i can get the best study method (tat suits me) b4 spm arrive..
been lazing around these few days.hm.. to be precise, been SITTING in front of the pc for these few days.. downloading anime series..haha..been watching mermaid melody, sailormoon, my neighbour toro.. n i'm downloading howl's moving castle now..haha.after all, i am just a teenager n i am going to make sure i enjoy this growing process till the max!! haha .btw, Sailormmon did brings me back to my reminiscence.Still remember tat i was 8 when the show is on tv. been catching every episode of it. i've even dreamt of myself trasform into sailor moon once i've turned 14 n i'll found my prince charming , just like her. rofl.
opps.. gotta go now.. completed the uploading process d.. now gonna watch the movie d..hehe.

Wat's the use of money?

2006-05-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

here's an article for ur tot:
there was once an american MBA graduate who went for a vacation in Mexico. During his trip, he saw an fisherman who went fishing everyday for only few hours n came back with only few catches.Due to his curiousity , he approached the man n asked the reason y he catch only few fishes . Below r their conversation:
s-student f-fisherman
s: good morning. I've been noticing u 4 these few days n i realised u work only few hours in the morning . May i know wat u do everday after ur work?

f: o.. i went fishing for few hours , then i'll come back here n sell the fishes to agents.Then, i''ll go to the beach n play with my children n enjoy the sunset, n i'll hv conversations with my frens while drinking beer n watching stars.n i'll start my job again tomorrow.

Trying to appplied his learning skill into this man, he suggested some management skill on him

s: Sir, y don u catch more fishes , n then u can earn more money. With tat money , u can buy better equipments n get a bigger boat n catch more fishes.

f: then?

s: then u can buy more boats n sell more fishes .

f: then?

s: then u can open up a company n earn more money . u can hire more ppl to help u to catch fishes n earn more .

f: then ?

s: then u can just sit back n relax. u can go fishing only in the morning n catch only few fishes . Then, u can go to the beach n play with ur children n enjoy the sunset, n u'll hv conversations with ur frens while drinking beer n watching stars.

f: isn't tat wat i am doing now?

-the end-
so wat do u think the purpose of u earning so much money?

p/s : wrote those on my own memory.forgotten where i put tat article . the original 1 is more interesting n totful.:P

translated n adapted from: The Eastern Newspaper

I've got streamyx!!!!!!

2006-05-13T04:51:00.000-07:00

Wei Ling is not available at the moment. She's now jumping over the moon *rofl*

Kidding. How i wish i can really jump over the moon.lol. got my streamyx today . unlimited access time summore . hehe. At 1st, we subcrisbed rm44 package . neverthelss. when dad realised that the broadband line is not available here n tmnet prepaid is sufficcient enuff 4 my normal access, he decided not to activate it at all. However, twist happenned when my bro accidentally paid the streamyx bill( which they accidentally put us into the rm88 category) was angry at tat time since we paid the bill without using it , but was overhelmed when my dad agreed to let us continue this subscription because my sis is moving back n she need fast internet access too.
Xm was tiring. This time, i had really put all my effort in it, hope tat the outcome would be satisfying .think tat's all for now.. going to spend my time spamming around fren's blog :P

FRIM

2006-04-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

went to FRIM today.tiring .. yet satisfied . i was the one who organised this trip. Glad tat this trip end well without much hassle... Scary though.Still remember the moment when i've become the club chairperson, both the committees n teachers am not cooperating with me at all. They tot this is going to be the same dead club tat it always am.Was having a lot of trouble with it. From the beginning of working alone in the club, till getting support from frens .. n then committees.. n now teachers.I may not be the perfect leader yet, but at least i gained respect n satisfied everyone. Some may say tat leader go against the odds, n i cant help agree on tat statement.. but this is when long term profit is involved .Rite now, for this small club, n being a chairperson for only a year, i believe i must set only short term goal as those targets tat i aim must be accomplish within a year. At least, as a leader, i inspired my team/committees to work towards the same goal. From the beginning of giving up, till becoming the one who provide ideas n work together with me towards the goal, i believe they r really serious with this club now. As for the trip, most of them get teachers to assist them , but it's diff in my case. I was the one who walk around asking for details from penolong kanan instead of teacher. My teacher advisor was kinda blur n yeah... tot tat i am jus the average student tat NATO( no action, talks only) nevetheless, i managed to prove to them tat i am even better than them,lol.I am the one who conduct the whole trip by asking my secretary to type letters, called to FRIM ,etc. I did try n asked for her help by fax-ing the letter to frim , but as teacher knows only teaching .. she didn't confirmed whether the FRIM had received the letter by calling to them, which nearly end up not getting permission from them. luckily, i called to them( hehe, din trust the teacher:P i know faith is important but it depends on situation) n re-fax it . lol.
Nevertheless, all these hassle does bear its fruit.On the way back, my junior thanked the president for these in a funny way which show the praise is genuine.. below is the conversation...
Girl: kak, do u know who is the club's president?
Me: y u wan to find her ? mayb i can help u to pass the msg?
Girl: just wan to thank her for making such a nice trip for us.
Her frens: yeah, the president is great.
ME:*ROFL*

Later on , my fren tried to tell her tat i am the president , in a funny way.

My fren: girl, who's the one who always talk in front during every club meeting?
Girl:She(pointing me)
My fren: then .. who's the president?
Girl: donno.
ME:*ROFL*

Tat's our school form 1 girl. lol. Though i am surprised at her innocence, but it does prove to me tat her praise is genuine instead of bodek. Nothing pay more than someone's appreciation toward one's job. Though this is just a small club , but i am glad tat i stayed here than being those glamour head prefect or other glamour club's president post. This is more challenging than those. For those nice n good club, all u need to do is just maintain it, furthermore, the teacher would be more dedicated, which u do less n learn less as well.but for small club, i hv to do all on my own , n raised my potential to the limit.by steering this club on my own, though there might be some flaws in every events tat i organised, but i believe it's consider good for someone inexperienced like me(i din receive help from teachers wor...) lol.*Perasan*
Sorry tat i din elaborate tat trip. It's just tat i prefer to train more on my leadership than my writing skill ..lol.think tat's all for now. must study for my xm d... :P

xm... n public speaking

2006-03-22T02:36:00.000-08:00

21/03/06
well, after all the reading tat i've gone through yesterday for my history n morale test, i was actually asked to go to another school for the district level pidato competition as a reserve. lol. hv to study all over again for the test which is postponed to next week. been doing nothing at there. but i did learn a lot as in the better way to present a speech .i was the 1st runner up in school level. both the champion of our school n I have different style of presenting our speech .Hers is more to body language(expressive) while mine is more to voice control(it is very firm n loud.the normal voice for pidato)i do think tat she's better than me on the aspect of presentation,content n language( flowery language),thus she deserve more to represent the school. but when the district level pidato result came out,despite of her calm n stable n expressive perfomance on stage, the jury recognised her only as a 2nd runner up, n grant the champion to another presenter from SMK Jalan Reko.The jury commented tat she smiled all the way during her presentation n emphasized tat they want sumone who has louder n firmer voice.. which is totally my style!!! OMG!! later on , teacher told me tat she wanted to giv me a chance by representing school in this competition since the girl is representing the school in debate, yet it was objected by anader teacher for fear tat i can't speak well at the spontaneous talk . was a little bit upset when i heard tat bcox they rejected me without even hv a look on how i will react on a spontaneous talk... they should hv giv me a chance to shine... then only i knew tat the girl was actually trained since last year( o few years) as they brought her to observe this competition last year... think i should hv join this competition last year... by then, they would actually consider me.. but i was focussing on debate last year( which turn up tat they reject me on tat as well.lol)
well..i think tat's the disadvantage for being a transfered student. i can't really master well on 1 particular language. though i still think tat the language tat i am best at is mandarin , but i know tat it is not good enuff compared to the students from chinese school.debate was sumthing tat i had anticipated since primary school.. but seems like the dream is not going to come true... i was well trained for public speaking since primary school as well, but i can't represent the school due to the timing problem in standing out.. too bad for me... think i'll just hv to wait for another chance on tat .... n train on my own without any guidance ... ehhe.. better concentrate on my study now...

22/03/06
conclusion on nowaday's education: teacher cares more bout the school reputation than the students' benefits
Y would i said so?'' well, all of the science stream students tat are taking acccount in asccount must take the monthly xm n attend the xtra class regularly regarless of wat the students are having at tat time to prevent them from failing the particular subject in SPM n bring down the school academic passing percentage.This is to prevent last year case repeat as one of the science stream student failed her account in her SPM despite of other science stream student tat score A1.If it is not obey, then the school may require the student to drop tat particular subject - as adapted from Pn.Tan, our account panitia head.
well, tat's just a nice version of her forcing us to take the xm.The real version is... she non-stop reminding us not to repeat the same step as if we hope to fail in our xm.. tat we'll bring disgrace to school for taking xtra subject . funny. besides tat, out account teacher , who is not only incapable in teaching , but lazy as well, put the blame on us , complaining tat we didn't attend her class as proposed. DUH!!! As if we r the one who cancelled the class. It's been few times i stayed back , wasting my time to find her , just to get a reply from her tat the class is cancelled bcox no one is turning up. The prob is, she is not waiting for us in the class at all! but honestly, i din really wan to attend her class oso! She's just making the subject hard to comprehend.I would still attend her class if she's just making me fall asleep during her clas... but it's not! she even confused me in all my calculation . GOSH!! for goodness sake , it would be better if I study myself at home. furthermore ,I did attend account classes regularly outside the school, so y can't I excuse myself from the class as this is just a waste of time for me? this statement from both her n pn.tan did create a great furore among us as we REALLY AM NOT HAVING TIME TO WASTE FOOLING AOUND WITH LOW-QUALITY TEACHER!! honestly,I dun think i'll be tat angry if they tell us in a nicer way.. but they were not!!! they were putting the blame on us n kept on repeating how disgracuful it is when there is a science stream student failed her account last year... gosh!! feel like stomping off to somewhere else instead of listening to their lecture. summore the teacher said tat she did teach 2 studentd tat manade to turn up for her class... hinting to us how terrible we r.. OMG!! she didn't even notify me tat there's a class at all.. how would i turn up at there?!! haha. such a funny n irresponsibke teacher, n a disgrace for this profession too. used to think tat teachers r all good n perfect .. haha. such a naive thought!
but, i dun really like my blurness n the way i havdle the situation.i was so blur tat when teacher told us the class is on tuesday i misheard it as monday but pronounced it as tueaday again. ahah. get a nice scold from her n evidence tat i din attend the class at all. silly me!! hm... seems like i'm getting more emotional this year.. n my ability of memorising things is decreasing. i can't even remember my bro's hp num!!
i din really memorize my science subject for my test ..but i chose to understand n read through ... thus dun think i'll score in all the definition part... gosh... my mind is not working well lately.can't really concentrate on my study.GOD HELP ME!! lol.

F! duty

2006-03-22T02:33:00.000-08:00

I still can't believe tat I’ve spent my day on f1 duty instead of studying for my physic test which is on tomorrow.
n after all the things tat I’ve gone through at there.. The only conclusion tat I can get is: the race is deafening.lol.
I got to stand at the rm500 spectator side.. Thus, I can hv a good view at it. but seems like I’m not really appreciating it.lol. Furthermore, only few cases happened at my post compared to my fren who treated 500++ ppl at her post.. pity her, cant watch the show at all. it was a boring duty for I had to stand from 7++am till 2++am without doing/watching anything until the race started which is around 3pm.was wondering y ppl would spent such a large sum of money just to watch this, until I saw the car racing on the track, then only I realize tat it is really worth tat much.. The racers were all so bold tat I feel like closing my eyes when I 1st watch the car running so fast n furiously.they dun even brake the car when they turn at the block!! OMG.. dun really dare to sit on the spectacular seat though I know I can. eheh. hv to take care of the st.john image wurt... thus I got a niceeee souvenir from it : sunburn . lol. now my face has 2 color tones every time I took off my specs. but it is not becoming darker , only redder. looks like bushing all the time. haha..
o yeah, back to the F1... RENAULT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COOOL!!!!! not only it run at the 1st place .. the colour is sparkingly nice as well..the 2nd car tat I like is Ferrari though it's not getting any ranking.. haha.. pity Michael Schumacher .. think he deserve it since he change the engine at the last minute.:P I tot mclaren should look nice n elegant since it's a mercedez .. but ..nop..it didn't get my attention at all ,probably because of the dull n plain colour it had on it. It was very late when I arrived town. thus ,I hv to attend my cousin's wedding without changing my uniform.. ahha... became the attention of the crowd as I am the latest n the one with the weirdest clothes on. lol. everyone at there were wearing gown n elegant dress...except me. think I not need elaborate more of it as u can imagine the scene rite now.lol. summore saw my schoolmate's dad at there. haha ,he even told my fren bout me as she went to tat duty as well. arrived home at 10++ .thus, din really concentrate on my physic.

20/03/06
opps... I am going to fail my physic!!tat's the consequences for going to f1` duty without preparing for my test . lol. nevertheless,i'll nvr regret my decision as i think f1 is way moreeeeee important than the silly test :P ahhaa. btw, physic is really my weakest link as i always hv problem in linking the questions with the syllabus.. n oso because of the teacher tat I hv .. ahha I can still remember vividly the way she told me tat my answer is not fulfilling the marking scheme though i had follow precisely the method tat my physic tuition teacher taught.well, convent is famous for the strictest marking in the area in physic.... hard luck for having such an innegotiable teacher... haih... the way she teach n mark really makes me hate physic ... until now...gosh , hope I can conquer my hatred toward this subject by the time SPM approach.

Anyone here?

2006-03-13T04:21:00.000-08:00

LOl... it's been nearly a year since i last updated this blog ... god knows who will still visit here after a year... lol.. might just make this my secret territory...
let me see... i hv just got my tmnet at home yesterday .. at last i get to on9 as long as possible... a real priviledge for myself...
Last year was a havoc for me ..i was troubled with family conflict.. the preasure of getting a good result.. transport problem... etc,etc. at the age of 16, i cried more than ever.. with no one to fetch me home... walking up the hill for 1/2 hour , my sis-in-law evil plot.. lol... luckily now i am staying at my aunt's house... at last i can really concentrate on my study .. furthermore, i am going to F1 duty this sunday .. such an anticipating event....
honestly, right now i am not in the mood of writing anything... been meddling with the blog's template since an hour ago...n it seems like all the efforts are futile.. rite now , i'll just stick with this classic version's template until i get a better replacement ..lol

2005-04-23T01:12:00.000-07:00

Test's result:

Your dating personality profile:

Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.

Your date match profile:

Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.
Intellectual - You seek out intelligence. Idle chit-chat is not what you are after. You prefer your date who can stimulate your mind.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Liberal
2. Big-Hearted
3. Athletic
4. Intellectual
5. Religious
6. Adventurous
7. Wealthy/Ambitious
8. Practical
9. Romantic
10. Sensual

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3. Practical
4. Athletic
5. Big-Hearted
6. Adventurous
7. Conservative
8. Funny
9. Traditional
10. Religious

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1/2 good, 1/2 bad

2005-03-29T18:01:00.000-08:00

Soaked in wet. It was raining, n i 4got to bring umbrella... n so, i run back to Convent all the way from Yuhua....n here i am, taking the risk of getting fever. such a terrible day, moreover, the rain stopped once i reached there... terrible. I am just an wet alien that stand among ppl..:P but luckily, after tat , i took a bus...n saw an aunty n i..... actually, at 1st i dunwan to stand up 1.. afraid of getting reject again...( very memalu-fying 1 la!! ) but the aunty was standing beside me la... feel so kesian...n so ...i let her ...heheh..huuraayyy ,this time, i am not rejected!! fuh!!later on , a girl offer to help me to take my books ( tat my hand were holding) ....how sweet is she!! Malaysia is just a country full of love n cares!!!:) *beaming with hope*:)

Future

2005-03-27T22:30:00.000-08:00

Future, is unpredictable. In a sudden, I felt so lost in this life of mine. I used to be so clear of my goal, confidence all around, but as i grew , i changed. All my confidence just fell apart when i realised this world more. For instance, my ambition. I had wanted to be a lawyer since i am in std 2. Undeniable, at first , the main purpose of mine is the promising high salary of it. I did think of being a doctor, but i am scared tat i'll wrack the life of my patients since i am so reckless ( i'll left a scissor inside the stomack without knowing it:P) The thought of having the hand to decide someone's life do cringe me away. Thus, i chose lawyer, and i do feel like i am helping others too.Since then, i has sticked to this goal until now. I thought i had a clear mind of this but it seems like i am wrong! I've nvr had a second thought of this, but now as i grow, lies flying around me, masked ppl, sarcastic remarks, jealousy , betrayel.... all these made me realise that not all ppl are true n sincere. I'm afraid tat i'll misbelive them n help the evil instead of good. Will i? well, honestly, i have been conned for a few times n the figure is still cumulating. I dunno whom should i help n whom i shouldn't. mayb i'll just be a solicitor( handling only contracts) but it seems like it's kinda competitive in this field nowadays as firms are just everywhere. Then , i thought of being a psycologist. Since i am so stupid in figuring human, y dun i just go n learn to sort it out?:P O mab i 'll just be a pharmacist, helping ppl to understand their body more( n even distibute candies..haha) but i wonder if i can stand the tense of studying it( so many formula n medicine to remember...faint) o gosh, i am just so split-up!

Huuuuurrayyyyyy!!

2005-03-24T01:55:00.000-08:00

fuh...at last ...a post!!!! sorry for my absence for these few weeks..... i had written down few posts of mine on a paper...but i left it in my house!! haha:P
so i'll just write few of it...n i'll continue on next time , k?
1st of all...i hv shifted to Semenyih!!!!!!:P
i hv oso captured sum pic of it... o well...will upload it next time..the area is allowing only 28.8 kbps(duh!!) n i can only on9 in my dad's office since my house dun hv any line yet.....:(
n i had just had a haircut ... just after the new year....hehe... i am now officially having short hairs.... having long hair is kinda troublesome(honestly) though it's kinda hurt when it is cut... cox that's the longest i've had so far:P
bout the pic....hm...will upload it soon too....
o well...tat's all for now.... will return soon...really...:P

An embarassing moment

2005-03-23T22:00:00.000-08:00

Budi Bahasa campaign is going on and i've started my life of sitting bus back to home. In my 1st journey, both me n my fren decided to let our seats to the elders( honestly, this is the 1st time, i just dont have the guts and when i hv it, my mom for sure would be beside me n stop me) and then my fren left, leaving me in the bus n i managed to find a seat.after that, an aunty came in , n i (at last) braved myself to walk up to her n let her the seat...but she REFUSED!! o well,i am just so embarrassed ( i dunno y , dun ask me!) and i just stand there until i arrived the destination. I felt like everyone was staring at me as i decided to stand while i can chose to sit. Once i reached there, i quickly tried to get out from the bus, but it was a hustle bustle road. The driver kept on saying '' Ah Moi , ada motor! Tunggulah Ah Moi!''( sumthing like tat, emphasizing the Ah Moi...ishk! how i hate this phrase):P well, i just crossed the road n my face was red all the while, and now, even it's late at night , the scene just kept on lingering in my mind. I just feel like i always do the right thing at the WRONG time! o gosh, i dunno y i just cant suit myself with the majority. Mayb i am just too naive(I hate this!!:P ) how i wish i could just hide myself in home n nvr face anyone other than my family .:P

Happy Chinese New Year!!

2005-02-12T18:30:00.000-08:00

Eppy Chinese New Year~~~~:)
well, this year, as usual , house-visiting, chatting , holiday n not to mention, ANG POW!! haha, well, since this is the 1st year for my bro to gip ang pow, i got sum ''extra income'' too...lol
but it seems like it's not tat smooth-going on the new year eve, cox my bro got ''saman'' , my sis eyes swelled, n i had swollen lips~!! even my dog oso had the same situation with me!! :P n my sis tot tat i had an affair with my dog...haha:P luckily, it's all sorted out by the next day(if not, for sure i wont step out from my room!:P)
n this year,unfortunately, i cant resist myself from the food temptation,n , *sob sob*ive gained weights....even my friends told me so...waaaaa*wail*
but tat's new year afterall...so...dun care laaaaa!!!:P
o ya, my sis is 21st this year, n her bday is exactly on the chinese's valentine's day(so-caleed,chap goh mei) n we r celebrating it today...ahhaa... happy bday sis!!!:)

2005-02-11T22:00:00.000-08:00

hahaha...i am the american idol!!!:P

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I am old........:P

2005-01-27T01:17:00.000-08:00

You Are 18 Years Old

18

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

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Thaipusam

2005-01-25T23:41:00.000-08:00

hahaha....eventhough i am a chinese ...i celebrate thaipusam too.....ahah...kidding la.... but yesterday , i did go there for my st.john duty.....ahah.......it's indeed a long journey......hv to use LRT to Sentul, n then change to KTM from Sentul to Batu Caves...... n due to the train prob..... we were late n so our duty hours had to extend till 6 pm:( btw......it's such a big crowd when i reached there....just like a small Mumbai tat i used to see in TV.....even the KTM oso....as if i had went back to the 80-an.n i saw many ppl shaved their head n sum yellow powder on their head......later only i realized tat the function of this yellow powder is for the cooling n curing effects...cool!!! o ya!! they said most of the ppl shaved their head as a vow to the god...they will shave their head once their wish were granted......... as we duty, we saw a lot of foreigners at there too... mostly of them were taking pics n recording video at there.... n so, throughout our duty hours, both me n my fren wished for one of the foreigner to fall down o faint...so tat we can rescue them...CPR~!!!:P haha...... too bad my wish din came true...mayb it will come true if i wish from the god ..n shave my head when it's granted?!!!:P beside tat, there;s a foreigner who did approach me , to enquire bout sum of our country education system n culture too...wowow...he can speaks mandarin as well!!!!! lol....but at 1st, i tot he cannot speak mandarin, n he tot i cant speak english...lol......he was like trying to let me understand his words though i already understand it well:P not only tat...later on, we saw him again , asking another indian bout this thaipusam (i think) ....he chat with tat indian fella for 3/4 hours ...non-stop!!! n we were watching them all the while:P n there r oso sum ppl who get possesed by the god....... wa..... n once the god leave them, they will be soooo exhausted.........fuh luckily only sum minor cases such as faint n cramp happened there ...... luckily we din embarresed our area..fuh.........n i saw many ppl brought kavadi too n the kavadi inside contained milk(now only i know:P) but sum of them faint bcox of it.... pity them ...... n sum really poke their tongue with the needle...waaa.....scary!!! n i saw them bringing it out summore....:(
n then, i dunno whether u all saw this b4 o not, but there's a ritual in Indians, where those childless husband n wife will wish for a son from the god, n when their wish were granted, they will put the child hanging in a cloth tat tied at a sugarcane stick n both of them will carry the child up to the caves to thank the god...waa....how lucky the child were n how great their parents are!! o...how i wish i wil be carry like tat when i was small:P but due to the long duty hours without doing anything...we ......wish for sum of them to faint...:P *so bad so bad* cox we r bored!!:P

ok la...after tat, around 6 pm ... we were off duty n came back to kajang.....
but today....we got fitness test!!!! after the exhausting yesterday's work..... i had to run for 7 rounds on the field.....wakakakakaka...imagine tat!!!:P

err......

2005-01-22T06:26:00.000-08:00

err....... clueless in the topic tat i should write......hm.... study for just 3 days ..n straoght-away hv holiday..... thursday went for tuition...b4 tat ... celebrated my fren's bday in Bakery Cottage... she was so touched tat she decided to gip us a treat in Natashaki...:P waakkaak....ate a lot on tat day... n then on Friday....1st tuition class on addmaths....but due to my blurness .....i remembered the wrong time...n .......... i missed it:P haha.....tat's how blur i am!!!:P

Literature

2005-01-16T22:32:00.000-08:00

Here's a true story:
Anna was a lady who lived with her husband n her son . Her husband was suffering from an illness n her son was waiting for the letter from the varsity. Anna, in here, was working in a ministry of finance in a small district.Then ,one day, Anna was called by her boss. She got a promotion by the ministry, which meant the increase of salry payment n a better post too. n This would for sure solve the finance prob of her family. Her husaband would get a better treatment n she can afford her son to a better education lavel.n so Anna accept tat offer....

BUT, there's a condition for this offer....''U will hv to go to Manilla to get the signature of the officer..n on ur way home, y dun u buy me 2 jeopardise of wools there?''her boss said.

in Filipine, wools r quite expensive....Anna said yes n thank you to her boss n walked out. N then she count n count.Wools r expensive, n her fares, n food, n lodging, though she is going to stay in her cousin;s house but she would hv to give a gift to her cousin too...including the wools, tat would a costly expenses..... now...should she go back n claim money from the boss? o she will hv to count it on her own?...........

When she arrived in her cousin's house in Manilla, things weren't tat good afterall.There r quite a big family there,n in a sufficient condition too....they slept on the floor with the mat on. Feeling guilty , Anna decided to get the meal on her own...n borrowed only the place to sleep at nite....n yes, she promised her cousin tat she would tried her best to get the document fix as soon as possible

In the morning,she woke up early n help them in cooking, laundry, wherevener she could help. After tat, she walked to the office to fill up the form n give it to the officer.

In the office, the receptionist stared at her with a half-dazed eyes, when they heard her request (to get the form) they replied'' hemm..hem.... borang?!!! form?!! dunno where i put.....ala.... dunno la... come back in 2 days time!''

2 Day?!! tat would be troublesome for her cousins n her too... Wanting to fix this as soon as possible...she pleaded the receptionist , but it's not working...BUT, when she gave 20 dollar to them..''Come back in an hour!!''

An hour passed. 'Miraclously'', when she got there, the forms were there, filled nicely.... n so, she went to see the officer...

unlike the snobbish receptionist , the officer was friendly. '' For sure i will sign on it... but y dun we go for a dinner b4 tat?"'

A dinner?!! Anna's heart sanked.... another cost tat would be...

''Sir ,u see....my cousin's house was quite po...

''not need invite me to ur house to hv a dinner. tat would be great but a simple dinner at out would be ok ....''

Her heart sanked for once again...no other options...'For my husband n children...''

'' so sir, wat type of dinner u preferred?''

'' A japanese food would be ok for me...just wait for me in the japanese restaurant in the japanese hotel''

n so, they went there...the food is dearly expensive...but tat's nto the end yet...

''Let's hv a drink''

''Sr, i don't drink.''

''Awww...Y not? y r u declining me all the time? u dont seem to enjoying this at all... COME ON! .....ok , since u dunwan to hv a drink, Then buy me a drink!''

N so, she bought him a drink....

''COME! accompany me to the room... ''

''Sir, i think i should go back rite now...''

Though she refused it few times, but the officer seems to be a deaf for it... Reluctantly, she was forced to go to his room...The officer dragged her to the room....

''Sir, pls don't. i am already a grandmother. I had a husband who is sick n my child wanting to go to varsity...''

''dun u want me to sign on the paper?''

No matter how many times she plead, she begged, she cried.... it's all in vain....

she let him to do as he wished...............

she got the papper with the signature on. On the way home(in the bus), she felt nothing.... nothing in her mind except her husband n son.... Her husband will get a better medication rite now...n her son can get to the varsity tat she wan it to be...her son will need not to be a taxi driver ........Her family would be better....

N she arrived . But when she walked home..... a motorcylist get passed her n grabbed her bag...........including the document.................-the end-

hurray!!! a new layout!!!:)

2005-01-16T02:58:00.000-08:00

yeah yeah~~~~ a new layout for me......the previous luminescence was indeed a failure n i am getting bored with the fallen angel but due to the time factor, i've nvr change it until now....hurray!!! n at last...i know how to do a comment link d....lol... though it;s quite late:P n i had added a song into this blog....n i had started this with ''Only Hope'' by Mandy Moore:) this song used to be our school's choir song:) hope u all will enjoy it:)

such a week

2005-01-13T04:33:00.000-08:00

fuh...such a week!! n here's the summary:
monday: as usual....nothing much tat i jot bout it...:P

tuesday:ponteng kelas.lol. not really la... our class is honoured(actually it's by force) to be invited to a chegue-giving ceremony(NIOSH) as usual, we go there just to be the supporter( in cantonese,ke lei fei) :P summore, our principal, afraid of us fallen asleep during her speech, b4 we went there, she ask us to do a sort-of rehearsel on clapping hands during certain parts of her speech.:P n when we went there, there were some media ppl there(including tv3) n then we were trying our best to get ourselves into tat camera.lol.

Wednesday:1st: my fren told me tat not a sign of us o even the news is on tv.lol:P
2nd: usually,it's teacher who asks students to do homework. but it seems like it's the other wat round in my class.lol. 1st time ever, we asked teachers to give us works, cox our class got the least homeworks compare to the others. n we r stress bout it!!!lol. our teachers oso laughed at our ironic behavior:P

thursday: TUITION,TUITION,TUITION!!! everyone is atteding tuitions *sigh* it seems like the ''kiasu'' trend had blew far from S'pore to this peaceful town n make my life aint tat peaceful anymore!!!:( at 1st, i tot i was quite over-anxious bout my study by finding tuitions everywhere, but i pulled my hand off in the end due to the fee prob( dunwan to burden my dad ) but to my horror, everyone is attending tuitions except me(err...not precisely, i am attending accounts, but tat's bcox it's not available in school)n here i am, relaxing here, meddling with my pc(internet) reading newspaper, storybooks...lol.but need not worry, i'll be joining them soon...the nerd-going-to-be!!!:P

p/s: i am kinda obessesed with a series storybooks by an author rite now...lol (die la!!instead of studying, this is wat i did!!!lol)

TGIF!!!!!

2005-01-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

Thanks God It's Friday!!! party-time!!!cant help myself missing u all.... :)
btw. u all miss me o not?:P lol.... mayb i just tepuk sebelah tgn sahajer by missing u all...lol:P really arr? MENYESAL AKU RINDUKAN KORANG!!!:P kidding la:P
btw, not having a good sleep recently..:( instead of insomnia, i get to sleep for more than 8 hours , but drowsiness still got me... mayb i am having a bad quality sleep afterall.... been having nitemares in every sleep of mine, all my fears just appear in my dream ... mayb i had put too much burden on my shoulder ... :'(
but nvm la....think i'll be better soon:) i hope so...

such a day!:P

2005-01-03T04:33:00.001-08:00

i got into the class tat i desire i think.err... precisely, i got into a class tat hv the best teacher but average students....actually, i already knew bout the class tat i get in few days b4 tat, cox i hv the advantage to choose the class tat i want, if u all r to chose, a good environment or a all good teachers' class? which one would u preferred? (good environment= all terror students.lol):P well, i chose the good teachers' 1 ... n as i expected , the class is the weakest class among three other science stream class ...:(
at 1st, kinda regret, but now when i think back , mayb it's good for me too..not tat stressful , may b this would be better for me, but i scare i'll start to lazed out n wrack my study:P

n yeah , such an itchy day for me too... whole day long, due to my allergy( 1st time ever in my life history...ggggrrrrrr) i cant help scratching myself throughout the class...lol.. my friends oso feel pity for me...lots n lots of remedies n solution tat they suggest to me.. thx a lot!!:) tat was so nice of u all!!!!!
n yeah, i had just cut my hair yesterday... i hv fringe!!! :P looks funny though.(i'll put the pic later kut cox the camera is now in my sis's hand)
last but not least, cant help myself in opening this pc... aiyoyo..addicted...wat can i do..*sigh*:P

thx for everything

2005-01-02T01:00:00.000-08:00

lol.just had a game . main kahwin2.lol. so many funs inside of it...unusual wedding ... n the ending- nenek n the bridegroom died..shuld be sad...but cant help myself laughing.lol
yeah...school's reopening soon..... n i'll be unactive again..well,cox my father had forbid me to play internet until late night d...:P not really forbid la.. but of couse i am not allow to on9 everyday:P i know he scare of me getting cheat by webfrens...lol... i knew it cox i've been laughing alone in front of pc for quite a while d...everytime my dad oso asked me whom am i chatting with ...lol..:P cox i've never been so crazy bout internet b4...lol .... nvm la.. will u all remember me? *sob sob* no matter how.. i'll still on9 but not as much as now... but i do really wish to keep contact with u all... i'll still continue updating my blog....n chat with u all :) i'll missssssssss u alll....
last but not least, thx for brighten up my day!!!!!!!! i'll remember the moments tat we shared together n i'll cherish it:)

eppy new year!!

2004-12-31T08:22:00.000-08:00

in 3,2,1....EPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 * fireworks* *crackers* .....
yeah yeah, eppy new year to celeste, helen, aja, winter, ona, den, jimmie, gaerie, yoks, priest, kitty's cousin-meow(lol) n many more....haha:P
such a year.....any flashbacks? though in the same time, the forum is locked.... but well, there're still tomorrow n season 2 too!!!!:)
for me, 2004 was such a year ..... a lot of hardcore ...not presicely too hard...but i do get some lessons...... :)
wat bout u all? b4 i end this...EPPY NEW YEAR 4 ONCE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a whole new world...but izzit worth it?

2004-12-30T23:30:00.000-08:00

yeah...a new n harder stage.... n yeah..i had strike in my PMR... but in the same time, i had indeed sacrificed a lot which i really doubt it rite now......due to PMR...i quit all of my co-curriculum,not exactly quit...it's just tat bcoming unactive in it...... in-the-end, yes i did hv a good result.. but izzit worth it? i dunno. i am really in doubt now. y the hell will i worry my result so much? i dunno. hihi.but it's all over now:P let's hope for the best for me!! n yeah, a new year, a new beginning... i tot the science package is only 9 subjects, but to my horror, it's ten!! opps.... hihi... n then summore i am going to take for sum xtra subjects...i dunno whether i still can continue my co-curricular o not.. hai~~~ i think i can only chose either one type of curricular but i scared it will affect my study...(tat's y i drop it in form 3*sigh*) *cried* aiya..dun care la!!! i 'll just pick either one n then if cannot stand it anymore...i'll drop it...hahah:P
n same goes to my xtra subjects oso:P *i am so bad*haha

The Bachelor

2004-12-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

fuh...at last, the long -waiting/ anticipating competition has reach its end... n the winner is ....jeng jeng jeng!!! WINTER!!!! lol:P n b4 the rsult is revealed, each of us( me, winter,aja,ona) r required to answer anader question by den,for more details, u may go to this site, http://www.mrnerdy.com/thebachelor/ n yeah, as expected, i was the 1st one to be booted out...muahahahah:P quite sad...but nvm la... since i got the miss ''so touching'' award...muahahah..:P there's also 3 more awards...which r...

miss digital photography-aja
miss bloggers- winter
miss knows me well-winter

congrats to u all!!!:)

new layout-new breath

2004-12-27T21:33:00.000-08:00

a new breath to my blog... :) christmas is over ,signifying the time for me to change my blog's layout...well, yesterday, both me ,aja, ona, n winter had particuipated the long-waiting competition, The Bachelor.... jimmie n yoks r teh observer...o shuld i said jimmie, the cheerleader n the host? lol. hihi... btw, pmr result will be reveal on tomorrow...wish me luck!:)
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

2004-12-24T18:00:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas Eve n Merry Christmas in advance!!1 hihi….this is specially dedicated to Celeste, Helen, Cherry( though u nvr on9..haha) ona, den, priest, gaerie, jimmie….. mayb u all will read this ..mayb not… well, just a wish from me to u..:P HAVE A HOHOHO MERRY XMAS!!! 

Back From Taiwan

2004-12-21T16:53:00.000-08:00

>HURRAY!!!!finally, I am back from …hihi.. Frankly speaking, this is actually the 1^st time of me sitting the aeroplane….n here’s sum shots:

The plane tat we sat…Boeing 747

Here’s Taiwan’s …haha

The bus tat we sat… the lower decker is only for the baggage …all of us sat at the upper decker…such an animated bus……when I 1st arrived there, I really think tat Taiwan is like a cartoon city…the buses r like bugs while the shops’ design r just exactly the same as the usual building tat I saw in those typical taiwan’s game(e.g: da fu weng( Chinese version’s Saidina)

This is a nona …in a bigger size…hihi… it’s actually combination of soursop n nona… Taiwanese just love to combine fruits genetic… end-up… there r also milk strawberry n milk grapes too ..

Tat’s me… posting in front of a temple in a mountain in Hua Lian…

Mountain view in Hua Lian …such a nice scenery

The famous xi men ting…I saw a live concert there by xin yue duan(a music band) quite a place…there were big tv screen everywhere….

the concert.....

CHUCKY~~~ saw a chucky postcard there… but cant find a chucky doll…haha..treat this as a present for den…..seeeeeeeeeeee~~ DEN!! I brought u a present n u din brought one for me…*sniff* haha:P

Not only tat…in the xi lin nite market…I saw ona;s best fren..opps*runaway* haha…kidding…this is actually sumone’s pet…ppls just bring their pets with them all the while…so nice… saw a lot of nice dogs too… not to mentione…the Husky breed(Siberia’s dog)

guan cai ban...one of the famous food in taiwan...filling inside the bread.. it's name rhym with the word papan keranda but when it's written down...it means kekayaan n kenamaan (guan=pegawai, cai= kekayaan) such a funny name:P

Last but not least, the famous ping lang mei( girl who sells pinang/sirih) ...i nearly 4got bout this..haha... they r scattered all around taiwan...n they r even those who wear only underwear *dunno how to say la* i wonder y they hv to do this just to sell the pinang...so funny....
btw, this is oso one of the famous thing in Taiwan...

I am back~~ n brb:P

2004-12-12T22:00:00.000-08:00

just came back from camp. tomorrow, i'll be heading for my family trip d...hihih...bye bye:P
kinda miss u all...... btw, this time camp is quite boring compare to the area camp tat i attednded last year...n indeed this year, i'd learned a lesson ...think i'll tell u all later...for now...just to say hi to u all!!!!!!:P

yeah! new layout

2004-12-12T00:00:00.000-08:00

it's getting near to christmas n i am bored with my layout.And so,I decided to have a change on it...due to time matter, at last I came up with this...not tat easy to read though ...nevertheless nice layout...hope u all like it...last but not least,MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! till then, see ya~:)

BRB

2004-12-07T22:55:00.000-08:00

just to tell u all tat i'll be away from 8-19 dec....for both camp n family trip:P
time to have a break, i think:P
but when i am back....muahahahahhahaha......u all better be prepare for my return....:P

p/s: frankly speaking., i think i gonna miss u all....tat's the worst part*sigh*
opps ....*look right, n then look left*
*runaway*

last but not least, congrats to winter for bcoming the queen of word games:P
wait...izzit called word games?:P

Camp!

2004-12-03T13:05:00.000-08:00

haha...just went for my st.john state camp's briefing this morning and i get to be in the same group with my neighbour, wat a coincidence!haha:P after some discussion, both me n fren went to hv a haircut on the way back to school...haha ...i've had my hair trimmed :P

clueless

2004-11-29T13:34:00.000-08:00

OMG... i am bored!!ggggggrrrr:P And i've been clueless on posts tat i shuld made...at last, i came up with this!:P i've indeed lost my touch in these... i alwix get the spark of idea...n i alwix failed to catch tat glimpse of it... end-up,none of it is in my posts:P

o yeah... n now spamming is becoming a trend.....haha.....everyone's blog r the victim of it(shuldi say victim?hm....)muhahahahah:P
k...tat's all for now....better get back to my work(spam).....:P

2004-11-22T15:00:00.000-08:00

few days ago, i had a conference with den,winter n revo......it's like a singing conference....except for den...haha:P well, winter do really had a sweet voice...i was like bowwowwww when i was hearing to her...but too soft la...haha:P at last,i braved myself to talk on mic....think this phobia is not a fear for me anymore....moreover, i think i had get addicted with it...haha:P

2004-11-16T18:19:00.000-08:00

OMG...my world has really turned upside down ever since i met them...
i really had nvr get such craze in cyberworld b4....until i actually wan to on9 24 hours if i can.... having a spontaneous response on opening the pc once i saw it.......
aja,fiona,n den, i nvr think tat i could be so crazy...NO!! it's worse than tat...it's insane!!haha:P nevetheless, i really enjoy all these moments, . n yes!yesterday, we had just held a competition...SPAMMING competition... haha... i still can remember how terrible we r...simply find one's blog n then just SPAM!! poor fella....(in my own world of laughing rite now) if i am that unlucky person, i will surely find who's tat terrible fella!!! n even worse, mayb i wont create a blog anymore, o even post my PIC!! n i wont like MU anymore!!:P(btw, i never watch football at all...haha)
oppss...hope he wont bump into my blog.... o he will surely know who is the one...haha
last but not least...THX AJA,FIONA,DEN!!! u guys really bring up my day!!!

flashback-b'day!

2004-11-14T05:19:00.000-08:00

this is a flashback from Celeste's bday...... ehhe....such a memorable day . This was a surprising bday for her,and so , we just tricked her tat we r going to her house to cook pizza, since only her house got oven...haha....lame excuses,... of course...she is clever enuff to sense tat there's something fishy ...haha...but we just never tell...haha...Well, think she surely know wat we're up to.... but we have surprises beyond surprises....haha:P...
on tat day...prob occured...bcox of my fren, thiru, who changed the time from 12.00pm to 10.30am (but the cake will arrived only after 12) so...i have to get out from house earlier(due to transportation prob) hm....n WAIT FOR HER FOR HALF AN HOUR!!! standing like a crazy people beside the shop...aiyo...the owner of shop surely wondered y this girl will stand there like a log in front of his/her shop...haha....pai seh pai seh...embarassing indeed.... luckily only half an hour.... but i already growling at her...since she alwix bully me,my turn to take revenge....haha.... n then to wait for the cake...since thiru have to go back earlier while my another fren,cherry will come later...aiiks... wat a mess... we bcome quite tensed-up, n me, trying my best to get 6 of us into camera, haiyo~~ hard indeed... at last, i got this:
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looked like andrew ,arent i?(perasan!)hahah:P told ya...i am not a pretty girl but a handsome girl..haha, next time, think i'll upload the pic of me when i am having short hair...opss...precisely , mushroom head...haha...surely u all will laugh ur head off 1...haha:P

n then,thiru accidentally hit celeste..n so this bday girl; went to locked herself in her room... we r all quite shocked.... i am quite angry at tat time also...cox we specially held this for her...she knew it!! n y she wan to make the situation so tensed?!! luckily later, when i knocked her door n tell how hard we were to held this... she smsed me n told me tat she will be ok ....hehe....n of course...later she open the door lo!!!:P...and we continue to wait for the latest queen(who's with the cake!tat's the frustrating part!!:P) from 10.00 am until 2.30 pm...only she arrived...wit the cake..... from SECRET's RECIPE!!yeah! tat's the surprise!eheh.... we went out together ...light up the candle...n sang the bday song while walking into her house...yeah yeah..aiks...but she's soo surprised tat she went up to her room again..aiyo!ahha...wat a mess.... of course...it such a warm moment .... at last she make a wish n blew the candle....but the surprises not yet end!! we gave her our present...haha....-censored- oppss...this is not to be telled...o celeste,u wan me to spit it out?
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haha... later on, as expected....cream-playing..... oppss...it's not! it's not only putting the bit of cream on face...but...CREAM SPLASH!!!!! OMG!!! whole face covered with cream... terrible indeed and crazy!ahah:P ...n my hair also!aiks... later on, it just smelled like vomitted cream on my head...eewwwww...haha:P
well...tat's all for this event...am i going too long?oppss...tend to elaborate story once i get started...hehe..... hope u all r patient enuff to read all these....:P

Cooking Day!!!

2004-11-14T04:39:00.001-08:00

Huuraaayyyyy!!it's cooking time!!! well......i havent went to kitchen for a long time alredi...hehe.... since today mom have to bring grandpa to the acupuncture centre ...so as usual, we knew tat she gonna be late to make the dinner... n so...my dad asked me to cook...n i agree!WEEEE!! eheh.... i enjoy cooking without mom around..:P i know tat she actually wan to teach me...but i prefer to explore it myself... futhermore...i have tried to cook on my own for a few times alredi... but things arent turned out as i expected it to be.....mum came back when i was cooking...oppss.... so she starts to order me to put this n put that...but luckily at last she allowed me to try it all out myself...hahah... gotcha! n there i was...cooking alone! huuraayyy!!!since i am not a pro at all...haha..i just cook it in an instant way...:P well...i cooked the tomyam fish using the tomyam paste of course...since my mum also dunno wat ingredient should be blend together.... how would i know leh?:P....n thenn i put all those food ingredient inside the pot ...n wait for it to boil.... in a meantime... cook n steam rice(steam rice bcox my mom is a diabetes patient ,so hv to eat other type of rice) n then....in just 15 minutes time(but 30 minutes for the rice,haha)jeng jeng jeng!!!! Dinner!!!!!!yeah yeah!!!! i got it!!1eheh.......i am so delighted with it...:P smells nice n delicious also!!(perasan!)haha... but since i follow my mom's method,so it became quite watery(we used to complained her, now i kena pulak!haha) luckily,just a minor prob...:P i am so satisfied when i saw my bro after having the 1st indulge(forced by me when he was reading newspaper,haha) would like to hv second....n my sis cant help eating it though her eyes already becam watery(haha ,spicy ma!) :P...my dad have the second bowl of rice...haha..... but of course, mayb they just dunwan to break my heart, tat's y forced themselves to eat!ahha!:P nevertheless, for me, i felt sooooo satisfied for having such a nice dinner made by me...of course ..only tomyam as the main n only dish....haha...wait! got another one, the sausage fried by my sis...hahah..... at 1st, i promised aja to be back at around 6.30 ....but i was too excited tat i went straight on starting my dinner...haha...sorry aja!!!hm...indeed it's been a long time since my last visit to kitchen ...haha..... o ya! but the rice tat i steamed....i put too much water !!!*sob sob* i already reduced it...but since it's the diff type 1....i still cant figure out the correct measure for it...hm....will got it rite someday!!! haha.... but hv to depend on my mood..,.haha:P

p/s:forgot to take the pic of it!!!but it's very ugly la...so better dun take....haha